well...look at the date...
today is the last day of the year 2011...
will greet the new day of 2012 tomorrow...
2011...
what it's meant for me?
the things that i know...i'm quite moody most of the time and i spend quite some money this year, especially for...oh you know~ >w<)/
appointed to hold big responsibilities, trying new things, experiencing more things, facing and solving the problems, making others worried about me, and...i dunno~ =w=)O too many to list all of them in this post...
we have 365 days and everyday we have something new happen...yea we may be doing some usual works, following schedule, and habits but they not always the same right? everyday is a new day~
about my life a medical students in UKM, as the Twinning Programme of UKM-UNPAD students...
oh dear, clinical-years-life is a lot more challenging now (of course it is...i'm a 4th Year now)...reading and studying a lot more than before, being so hardworking, learning new things, and meeting new people...
"i want to be a doctor that have grade A++ knowledge, not a grade C knowledge..." yup, that's what i always said to myself everytime i want to study and Alhamdulillah, it's helped in motivating me...
being scolded and in disappointment are my way of learning something because i know the mistakes that i have to correct...
yeah...after one and half year in UKM, i think i can fully being comfortable here...
and i'm glad that the in-house UKM students accepting us, the TWP students as part of their big family...at least that what i feel because i dunno all of them, i only know the one that i already associated/working with either for programs, organizations, or study...
thank you...
(am i being a bit sentimental here?)
being in clinical years also mean that we, TWP07 have lesser time to spend together...
we only have the chance to gather togther during ZT classes on Saturdays for only 4 hours...
but still, we manage to have fun together...
huhuhu~ i really miss the time when i'm in Bandung~
let's have fun together again~ as the TWP07 :3
and let's organized Twinning Family day again~ for our seniors, TWP06 and our juniors TWP08...
this year!!! urghh~ *headache*
this 2011 is teaching me how to HANDLE MY MONEY WITH CARE~
- my hostel fees (it's costing me the whole month allowance per semester)
- the B2ST fan-meeting (uhuhuu...i never dream that i will spend money for concert)
the only guys that dragged me to like K-pop
- i bought the most expensive equipment for my study -> otoscope/opthalmoscope (for the sake of learning)
- replacing my broken, cannot-be-repaired handphone with Mini (thank you to mama and babah that willing to help me with a bit of the prize)
but most of my money gone for food =3=)/
me cannot resist the food~
huhuuu...please be wise my dear self~ i love myself too much~
others?
well...i have the /g/s with me...
being accepted by them is a blessing for me~ (is this too...exaggerate? >///<)O gomen gomen~)
being with them make my colleagues think how fun/amazing they are (coz they are not medical students, oh there's one) and been wondering how i get to now them...
and this year is i managed to meet them in almost of the 'meetings' :3
to /g/s...thank you for making my life, more colourful~ xD
the /g/s...well not all of them in the pic...i hope you guys don't mind i put this i my blog~
there are few things for sure...
i'm still staying single all the year...and i'm happy with it~
i'm still being such a baby to my parents...and will forever be one~
i'm still having fun with my life as a medical students...and struggling to survive too~
ehee...
that's my year-end-feeling in this post...
i'm hoping for more adventure in 2012...and better year too (insya-Allah...aminn~)
please stay healthy and happy with your love ones~
XOXO - oh adding more eye-candies into the list...uehehehee~ >D
Oro~?
maybe some of you what am i going to post this time when you read the title...
it's a 'trademark' of a character...it's a cute sound (for me~)
in fact from my all time favorite manga...
Rurouni Kenshin a.k.a Samurai X
yup...
always loving this manga...and the anime too...but i love manga story-line more than anime~
and when the 1st time i heard about this manga to be made as live-action, i am excited about it!!!
especially after seeing the teaser pics and also the trailer...
COOL!!!
the guy as Himura Kenshin?
i approved him to be Kenshin...hahahaha~
the man in red hair - Sato Takeru
if you watch Kamen Rider, you will know this guy...
as for me...my 1st time seeing him is in Princess Princess D...yup he's too cute during that time~ =////=
but i love his acting in Mei-chan no Shitsuji~ hehehee~~
anyway...
will eagerly waiting for this movie~ =3
by the way, while i'm watching the trailer, i found a link of Domoto Koichi's song titled Kagen no Tsuki...
and...WOW~ this PV and the song is superb!!! xD
i'm imagining Kenshin and Tomoe while watching this PV....
go~ go~ my busy week already ended peacefully...
i'm grateful that i managed to go through the week without any major problem (there are problems occurred but it's settled already)
a really tension week for me...
i'm very 'emo' and moody last week...so moody till i easily feeling down, sad, and 'touchy'...
feeling guilty and like everyone is blaming me...
oh my~ too many negative aura around me last week =w='''
too many things happened to me these days...
and i'm using Twitter/Facebook to rant...yup, i don't know how to express those rants towards people but feeling comfortable when doing it like that...
i know it's not normal...but that's me...
case write-up to be done....
logbook to be filled...
reflective writing to be done...
events and other organization's duties to be finalized...
it's looked simple while typing/reading it but...oh God, please give me strength to get through this!
Alhamdulillah...
i'm a bit better now...
having HIM make my heart at ease...
hearing my parents' voice make me happy (missing mama & babah too much)
knowing that there are people who worry about my condition is a blessing...
thank you for always being there for me...i am grateful that i am who i am
and sorry for making you guys worry...
all the busy week tiredness gone during Sunday...it was a really happy Sunday
...it's fun spending time with the /g/s...and i can finally laugh-out-loud-hard on that day
thank you /g/s for the happy time together
(will post about this event later Σ(・ω・ﾉ)ﾉ)
thinking too much is tiring...
yeah i hope that i can pass this week peacefully...
no logbook, CWU, or reflective writing to worry this week...just have to settle the non-academic things
my one-year-old white coat finally needs some maintenance =w=
thank God i noticed it or i will end-up suffering to find the button in the clinic...
well...
once i got back into my room, i checked the coat and there - another button 'waiting' for its turn...
yup...i was satisfied with my own 'masterpiece' hahahaa
looks like i have nothing else to do, posting about this~ =\\\\=)v
or am i too stress-out? i'm really sure that i'm stress...a bit :3
busy week...i have to hang-on coz freedom awaiting me this weekend~
XOXO - wanna try to fix the button for...eheheee >\\\\<)O
accompanying my housemates to Psychiatry Ward really made me miss the time during i posted to the department two to three months ago...
yeah...lots of thing to be read, learned, and understood but i never felt burden by it...coz i love learning all of them...
i do remember the 1st attempt for me to clerk the patients there...
it really need lots of courage to ask them...coz they are sometimes unpredictable...
but once i got the 'rhythm' on how to approach them, the task to clerk and get to know them was easier than before...easier than before knowing anything but not easy ok...
yup...
i miss my supervisor too...and how kind she was towards us, her 'innocent' kids xD
it's really grateful having her as a supervisor throughout the posting...yup...too kind till when you couldn't answer her questions you would feel really guilty, she didn't blame us or even raised her voice...just a simple advice, "read again about the chapter ok...we will discuss it later..."
[with the supervisor & group-mates during Psychiatry Department posting]
another thing that i miss...the free time there...ehehee~
free time for yourself and have the time to track back what you already missed/not learned...
free time too because i can learn outside this hospital --> spend a day at special-needs center for community project, learning new things about substance abuse at Methadone Clinic, following Community Unit, visiting Hospital Bahagia...
those free times are really a precious one...
currently i'm in Orthopedic posting....
another challenging yet cool posting...how cool is that? wait till i finish this posting coz i'm planning to post about it later...
ok...
that's all...
huhuuu...i miss my family....and i miss my time in UNPAD and Bandung too~
wow...
a month later after the last post...
i have done it again...
yup...
it's already December...in fact it's already 10th of December!
wow~time surely flies really fast lately...
i would like to share more but i already feeling sleepy now...
hope that i manage to post something later...there's many things that i have to catch-up + share in this blog...
now..sweet dream people~
may God bless you with LOVE and HAPPINESS =3
XOXO - to be or not to be...many questions to be answered lately...and sometimes i don't know how to solve it
i know that i been ignoring it...for a month now... :D
yeah...
already 2nd week in the new semester~ new posting~
currently --> ORTHOPEDICS & TRAUMATOLOGY
uwaaahhh~ a super-duper cool posting~ super-duper cool cases~ super-duper cool specialists~ and super-duper 'cool' topics & examination techniques to learn =w='''
1st two weeks i assigned to Spine Team and will start the rotation next week, to the Pediatrics Team...
so...guys...like always...wish me all the best~
GAMBARREMASU~!!!
my semester 1 final exam result?
hurrr...i pass all the subjects (Alhamdulillah~) but i really disappointed with myself...the self-confidence-thingy do it again...more specifically, the little bit of over-confidence in myself killing me again this time...i really don't expect that i will get that kind of mark...
guess i just have to be confident..don't ever put 'over' in front of it...eventhough it's a little part of it...
oh well...i pass the final semester 1 exam...so i just need to do my best for this semester~
i know that i can do better~ =3
nyaaaaaannnn~~~
feel a bit better after typing it~
ueheheheee~
already past 10 pm...so it's the time for me to start study now~
need to prepare myself for this posting...and for the future too...
a patient told me this during the clinic this morning, "all the best to you in your study...you already have the look to become one (as doctor)..." T^T thank you~ i will do my best~ i WILL T^T
it's hard...
but this is the path that i choose...
and i love to stay with it
well...it's been a month since my last post, right?
huhuuu...i actually too lazy to update this blog + sometimes...i forget about it...wuhuuuu~~sorry neko-chan~~i will try to be a better blogger ok...
yup...it's already October...and that's mean it's almost the end of the year (2 months to go~) and for me it's time to push myself to study harder too coz final semester examination is around the corner...
but i think during study week i will update this blog almost everyday...coz i need too lighten the 'burden' and the stress...i have Facebook and Twitter...and i will never forget i have Blogger to release tension too~
ok..that's an 'introduction' post for this month...wait for my next post ok~
XOXO - comeback season~ (if you a K-pop fan you know the meaning)
it's been a long time since i write something in this blog...it's already more than a month, right?nothing much happen lately...like always, I'm using most of my time to adapt in my current posting - PSYCHIATRY...
it's a great posting and I'm learning a lot here... understanding the patients here teach me a lot about human...
see that picture above? the picture of my sisters and me...taken during Hari Raya... well...it's been a long time since the four of us taking pictures together... huhuu...i miss them dearly...and my brother and my parents too...
nothing much to post coz i'm doing this via my my Mini... i'll post something longer later ok~hahaa...as if there're lots of people gonna view this...
2 new of selcas (self-camera = "sel" - "ca" = selca) from me...
i was too tired to continue my reading or to open my book during these two separate times...
and totally lost in my own world~
.: me in my bunny-sweater :.
[taken and edit ted earlier this month]
.: me & Shinogu-tan :.
[taken and editted yesterday]
and i can't believe that i still have the ENERGY to do this eventhough i'm too tired with my packed schedule~~ >w<)O
nyaannnn~~|3
really love doing this...
at least this will make my day~and release my stress too...
being a 4th Year medical student surely can tense me up...
i do spend more time at hospitals, library, and books...compare to the time when i was in 3rd Year... *sigh~* owh well...this is a preparation for me...a life as a "houseman" is more difficult than this...just enjoy it~ :D
currently in Anaesthetsiology and Intensive Care Department, doing the last posting in TRIAD POSTING...
the last week in this 'long', packed, yet memorable posting~
doing the 'usual' thing when i'm in the department posting - finishing the case write-up, filling the log-book, and doing the reflective writing for PPD component...
well~hope all are well...
and hope to pass this posting too...
XOXO - owh gosh...everytime i looked at those pics, i will feel shy all of the sudden =///=)O
never thought that chatting can be this thrilling...especially when we're talking about some juicy, pretty little secrets between girls...
girl-to-girl talks...what else it can be? you know it better, right?
we are in the same faculty but it's really hard to meet each other...so just a simple chatting can make me this happy~i really do miss my dearest friends...
miss the moment when we are together...hoping that we can hang-out to make some 'noise' like always~
i already shared a bit about my life in Ophthalmology Department posting, the ophthalmoscope, the life in this posting, what to do, and others. currently in the final week of this posting and i'm sure that i'm going to miss this posting...
learning how to view the complex yet beautiful structure inside the eyes, learning how to handle the patients in the clinic (since there are few doctors but the clinic is always full with lots of patients), learning how to grab opportunity...yup, learning medicine is certainly fun...how tired and frustrated i am at the end of the day, i will in the end smile while looking at my log-book and thinking about what i already get during these days of studying medicine...
checklist for the final week of this posting:
case presentation for case write-up --> already done this afternoon & my supervisor already approved it~ :D
case write-up --> in progress, hoping to get it done by Thursday~=3
log-book --> half-done...another 8 fundoscopy findings to be done by this week~ =w=
reflective writing for PPD --> need to do it front of my supervisor any day of this week..."Dealing With Blindness" :)
miniCX --> a.k.a Mini Clinical Examination...another assessment done by the supervisor, this time our clinical & presentation skills...wish me good luck for this~>w<)O
choosing 'RHEGMATOGENOUS RETINAL DETACHMENT' as my write-up is certainly a challenging one...the first time ever i've done the ophthalmic evaluation in the patient - the tests, the examination...just hoping that everything going to be fine with this write-up...
ok..i'll take back what was tweeted by me @Twitter last night...i don't hate case write-up at all, i do love this thing so much...eventhough the process of making it makes me cry but in the end, i feel the really great satisfaction once i send it...
just wish me the very best of luck in this posting....
eyes are beautiful....they surely pretty from the outside...but have you ever the view inside the eyes through fundoscopy examination?!!
it's really exciting and satisfying when you find all the structures and appreciate them in fundoscopy examination - the optic disc, the cup, the blood vessels, the background/retina, the macula...
but, the view that i see is smaller...because ophthalmoscope has smaller field...
still pretty and you will go "whoa~" but these conditions can be emergency cases....
so...to people who read this blog, please take care of yourselves ok...love your body, your health, you eyes, and your vision...it's really sad seeing and listening about the patients' conditions and feelings when their vision impaired...
world without seeing the light...can we really live like that?
instead of white iPhone 4 that i already aimed before this, i took this Galaxy Mini...attracted to it's cuteness~ >///<)O
it's only 5 hours since i'm with Mini...
please do treat me well and don't be such a bad kid ok...i'm already frustrated before...
and i'm still adapting with it~ *stiff fingers while handling the touch-screen*
hahaa...
i tend to give names to my belonging...
"Bulat" for my cactus, "Shinogu" for my 5-year-old teddy bear, "Aka-chan" for my devil-like pillow, "Little Guy" for my laptop, and "Blue" for my mp3 player...
i know it's weird...right?
owh well~that's me...
no matter how weird i am, there still people that read this blog right~?
hohoo...
ok that's all....need to have some sleep since i have a busy Saturday after all...
Forensic lecture in the morning (9am - 1pm) and ZT Time Management lecture in the evening (2pm - 5pm)...what's happening to my Saturday? D:
XOXO - i miss waking up late in the morning~ =w='''
it's already passed 1.30 a.m. here and i'm still don't want to sleep...dunno why, these days i have to force myself to sleep (thank GOD that i easily fall asleep after that~ :D ) and easily get tired too...one hypothesis that i can made from this easily tired & so-called-insomnia - "PMS"
hehee...
that's not what i want to share today...just another post about my life here~yup, i already in the 2nd department in this TRIAD POSTING - OPHTHALMOLOGY DEPARTMENT...
like in ENT DEPARTMENT, my schedule in during the day is really full...and unexpected too~and for the 1st time in my medical school, i spend almost half of my daytime at clinic, an hour at the ward, and few more hours in the library...
in this Ophthalmology Department...wow~this posting really testing my ability of observing & my eyes' function too...most of the time i have to use the ophthalmoscope (pic) for fundoscopy examination...and i'm grateful since i'm not using any spectacles~ :D
and the ophthalmoscope...i have to bring with me all the time, not only n the ward but also in the clinic...yup, it's heavy....not to forget my pen-torch & neuro-pins too~without these, i feel like i'm a handicap...since all the items i mention above are important in learning~and during this posting too, i think it's really worth to spend that much of money for the ophthalmoscope + otoscope...
(how much is it? if you wanna know PM, comment, or tweet me...in short, it's expensive)
it's really hard actually to approach the patients in the eye clinic...most of the time, some of them will reject us but there still patients that understand our purpose to look into their eyes...they really understand that we need them to learn something, and we may treating them in the future...i really thank you for that...
still in progress to fill-up the log-book...and i'm still wondering around to find case write-up T^T~it's already Thursday and i need to find it quick since i have to present it on Monday next week before send it to be marked by my supervisor...
but...
i really do love this posting...eventhough most of the time i may seem that i blur/lost in my own world...but i really do want to be 'friended' with Ophthalmology...
the world without vision is hard ok~so love your eyes, love your vision, love yourself...
time to sleep~i need to take care of my eyes & skin too~ =3
XOXO - the view from fundoscopy...is really AMAZING~!!!
after a year, i got the chance to meet you again~ ^///^)O
after more than a month of waiting, the day to meet you finally came~ :D
yeah~1st July 2001!!!
the day that i've waiting with lots of palpitations~
it's B2ST 1st Asia Fan Meeting 2011 in MALAYSIA~
.: YEA~~I WAS THERE B2UTYS :.
it's an honored for the Malaysian B2UTYs since this is B2ST destination for their B2ST 1st Asia Fan Meeting 2011~
ok...
that day was like any other day~but plus dokidoki since morning~
i was so nervous~hoping that something really good going to happen later in the evening...
but...it was tiring day actually - ophthalmology lecture in the morning, clinic till 2.oo p.m. , common lecture till 4.00pm~ =w='''
after the evening lecture, i went back home to take something that i left - pre-order receipt & present for my bias in B2ST - Dong Woon...
and receive call from Alia, asking me to go to the FM with my friends...thank God Faru & Hani didn't go yet~
ok~straight to the point...
i entered the ground pretty late with Alia and her friends, Aqila & Mizah (sorry if i spelled wrongly)...once we sat on our chair --> BOOM - SPECIAL's intro on and B2ST coming out from below the stage...
i was like - "it's starting?!!!" and without delay i joined the crowd to scream too~ ^^)O
so the songs that they sang on the night:
Special (Shock of the New Era)
Soom (Mastermind)
Shock (Shock of the New Era)
Beautiful (Lights Go On Again)
On Rainy Days (Fiction)
Fiction (Fiction)
Oasis (Beast Is The B2ST)
I Like You The Best (Lights Go On Again)
V.I.U (Matermind)
no Bad Girl, no Mystery...i was hoping for Freeze too...
ok...memorable stuffs that worth to remember:
B2ST introduction in Malay language...so cute, so adorable but they still need to learn, A LOT...the cutest one was Yo Seob - "Apa khabar? Nama saya Yo Seob..Yo Seob imnida~" *awkward smile* (lol~combination of Malay & Korea) and the almost perfect one was Gi Kwang - "Apa khabar? Nama saya Gi Kwang dari BEAST..." nice Kiki
the MC asked them to say few Malay words and Dong Woon answered "Durian", followed by Yo Seob's "Laksa" and Hyun Seung's "Satay"...at that time i thought "they certainly love to eat~"
[LIVE] Yo Seob's "SNEEZE" cutely and Dong Woon's "GIRLISH-SCREAM"...and i actually thought these were cute...really cute >///<)O
Du Jun's "BIRTHDAY" celebration...and after singing the birthday song, Alia who was beside me shouted - "DU JUN MARRY ME~!!!" XD
"ROMANTIC GUY~" frequently said by Gi Kwang & Dong Woon during Q & A session when one of the question asked B2ST to sing birthday song for his girlfriend...it's sweet though :)
.: hmmm~some juicy secret?!!! :.
when the MC said something in Malay, Dong Woon was smiling and "yeah yeah yeah" like he understood the MC but when the MC asked "Dong Woon, awak faham ke?", he went "no no no" then "geulae?"
.: look at our baby Seobie :.
the most hyper member was Dong Woon and the next one was Yo Seob..."Awak ni kan, NAKAL~" and they laughed like little kids...
.: the true maknae & the fake maknae :.
during play-time...when Jun Hyung picked the lucky B2UTY, Du Jun & Dong Woon were the one who excited calling that lucky B2UTY...Dong Woon said "[i don't remember the name]~come on baby~put your hands-up~", making Alia and me singing "Hands Up" by 2PM :D
and play-time were hilarious~and i did envy the 6 luckiest B2UTYs...the MC said "Yang 2 orang ni macam couple (Yo Seob & his partner), yang lain-lain ni macam tengah dating, chit-chat, chit chat~" and Hyun Seung smiled a lot during this time~
other memorable things:
.: B2ST :.
Dong Woon's fan-service is the best...he 'divided' himself equally to every edge of the stage~frequently saying "come on baby" & "i love you"
.: he's my bias~ :.
Yo Seob another hyperactive guy...his reaction when his partner for play-time-with B2ST holding 'JOKER' banner is totally hilarious & cute~
Jun Hyung was the only one who paying attention when the MC explaining the rules of the game...with a cute, confused face...then "owh~it's like that..."
Gi Kwang was so adorable...being clueless what to perform after Progression done with their performance..."aee....Shocku? Shocku?"
Hyun Seung was a bit quiet during the FM, lost in his own world...but when he performed, his giving THE BEST especially during BEAUTIFUL, the cute Seungie ON~!!!
.: cute...right~? :.
Du Jun...another talkative guy...celebrating his becoming birthday during FM...fan-service of the day - hugging Joker in BEAUTIFUL~
they started to tease the B2UTYs before starting the encore performances:
Yoseob: you want summore???
B2UTYs: YES!!!
Dongwoon: are you ready???
B2UTYs: YES!!!
Dongwoon:i'm not~HAHAA!!!
and B2UTYs kept-on screaming, shouting - "ENCORE~ENCORE~ENCORE"
hahaa...cute, bad boys...
then they came out again with wearing FM tees and started to perform the 3 last songs - Oasis, I Like You The Best, V.I.U...
.: one missing...right~? :.
.: sexy Gi Kwang & Hyun Seung :.
perfect and nice...with such a sweet, memorable end - "I love you~" by Dong Woon & almost-fall-from-stairs Yo Seob...thank God nothing happened to him~
besides that...since Faru and Hani want to stay to send B2ST to Singapore, i decided to join the crowd...2 hours of standing while waiting (my heart cried at that time coz i'm already sleepy...) and all the tiredness gone when i get to see their faces for the last time...and it was REALLY CLOSE~!!!
so cool, so handsome, so fair, so radiant...it's really "MABUSHI~~!!!" [try to pronounce it like Sunako from Perfect Girl Evolution]
Du Jun frequently opened the window's cover and waving to B2UTYs...then Jun Hyung followed him...with such a cute smile...the smile that rarely seen on his lips~ =///=)O
and...i got back to my room at 3.oo a.m~ =w='''
well~the good things are lots more than the bad one...i just put the bad ones here coz over all, i did enjoy this FM~and it's really worth my money to watch this~ [thanks to Alia ^^)v]
.: thanks to Alia, i get to know B2ST~ :.
throughout the FM...all i did was screaming and screaming and screaming (lol~it's not good for your ear, throat, and eyes too)
and the MC too~i really like him...he truly knows how to handle the naughty yet sweet B2UTYs~
the bad things:
fans can be so scary ok~that will never change my statement eventhough i already have the love for K-pop
the securities for the hotel that they stay...were rude towards the fans
accidentally heard a fan talked bad things about Prince Jang...i dunno whether she meant for bad or just neutral remarks...but as a B2UTY, i hate her statement - "Hyun Seung doesn't have that BANG factor, so that's why he's out from Big Bang..." [to Prince Jang, if you are reading this, please don't be sad ok coz you still have me to love you~
sorry for being such a fussy person...
i would like to congratulate the organizer for organizing this event~it was smooth & no chaos at all...at least from what i observed, B2UTYs behaved sweetly that day~ ^///^)O
the time for the event also suitable...at least they respect the prayers time for Muslim too~
please organize more great events in the future ok~
.: satisfied face~|3 :.
that's all about my 2nd 'encounter' with my VIUtiful B2ST...
hope that i can see them again next time...
Yoon Du Jun, Yang Yo Seob, Jang Hyun Seung, Yong Jung Hyun, Lee Gi Kwang, Son Dong Woon
SO BEAST~!!!
XOXO - not going to MTV Worldstage Malaysia 2011 eventhough B2ST will represent Korea for that event...
the usual things that have to be done when we in the end of the posting --> completing the log book, finalizing the case that we want to do as case write-up and submit it, assessment by supervisor, doing certain reports that also need to be submitted by this week, 'mastering' the skills for taking history and physical examination of ENT cases...
one thing that happened...it's really sudden and we really didn't expect it to be happened...
don't wanna talk about that incidence...it's too painful...and i already let it out loud through my Twitter...but in Malay though...
it's already past midnight....and i don't care because i will publish this post~
hehee...19th June 2011 = HAPPY FATHER'S DAY
yup~it's FATHER'S DAY...
again this year...i don't have the chance to wish my dad, face to face...and celebrate it with him...
but i really hope that he knows that i love him so much~
i called him "babah"...
.: babah & me :.
(i dunno how old am i in this pic)
i am his 1st princess and i will always be~
babah is a quiet person...but he do know what to talk when he's with his friends...
he's a really kind man, not only towards his family but also friends...
he's a strict boss...yup, because i know how his employees respect him and afraid when they made mistake...
but he never neglect his responsibilities towards his employees...
he's a thoughtful father...always think about his children and he don't really know how to scold us...but he do know how to advice us till we change ourselves to be a better one~
but beware~once he's so angry, you totally don't wanna mess with him...i also choose to stay away and keep quiet if i sense the 'aura'~
he's a wise man but sometimes he dunno how to show his feeling...only mama knows what he's thinking & his worrying about...
she always said that he sometimes sit quietly at the kitchen, thinking something..and when mama asked, most of the time he will answered - "have the kids called lately?" [this referred to Dila and me since we staying at hostel]
out of blue, he will call me...asking how am i doing right now, am i doing fine, am i having any problem...most importantly - "are you eating well?" [coz he knows that i love to eat~ >///<)O]
and interestingly, our conversation never exceed 30 seconds...
yup~that's from my experience & records~
there's one time when our conversation reached almost 5 minutes - when the first time i fail my oral case presentation exam...
yup...he gave me strength & advice...told me "never see this failure as a burden...except it & fight it...be confident but don't be overly confident coz it will destroy you..."
to tell you the truth, i cried that time and i was waiting to be called to enter the examination room~
but his words really help me...really make me think back the reason why i choose to take medicine...
he's not ready yet to hear his daughters have someone special in their life...
yup~he always reminds us to focus on our study, think about ourselves first before taking care of others...and marriage, "wait until you are really stable in your life..."
i understand him...he only wants us to be happy and love our life first before appreciating someone else~and i really respect that...
"if you want to get marry, finish your study first and make sure you are really stable with your life..." so babah, i can find my future husband first right?
ha ha ha...just kidding...i don't even ready for that~
one thing for sure...i'm grateful that i have him as my dad, a really SUPER COOL dad~
please pray for my happiness and i really hope that i'm successful in my life~so that i pay you back, babah...eventhough i know it can never equalize with your sacrifices...
thank you, babah...
may ALLAH bless you now and always...forever...
ok... more than 2 weeks i don't do anything for this blog.... my usual excuse - not because i'm busy but i'm too lazy to update something~
it's already come to the end of 2nd week in ENT Department...and tomorrow is the final week in the department... so many things to be done in 1 week - the case write-up, PBL, log book, assessement & MiniCX... it's too short... it's too exhausting... and too frustrating too...not because of the posting, but because of certain things....
besides i have to wisely manage my schedule, i also have to think about my research papers...2 papers to be worried for this semester... one - a scientific paper or well known as thesis...still no idea what to do eventhough have to give to the supervisor this week... tw0 - "E-mail Projek" for a-must-pass-to-graduate-modul, "Pengurusan Masa" a.k.a time management...this is a non-medical things...
and the only day to relax peacefully is SUNDAY....nothing much to be done, just stay in my room all day...but i have to study too...since i cannot survive in the posting without knowledge~
yup... it become more & more stressful day by day... and Alhamdulillah i have beautiful friends around me... and a nice supervisor too~at least that make me feel at ease a bit...
ok...going continue my readings... done with sharing...feel a little bit ok now~ will post again something later today...
