Friday, April 17, 2009

in memories....love u forever....

Assalamualaikum n elo...

today is...not a very great day for me...a day that i never thought to come this fast...a day that...
i lost my beloved grandma this morning....

i knew about it when i called my mom this morning...just wanna called her, asked her whether she called me last night...i didn't answer the call yesterday since i attending my friend's birthday party + meeting for TWP07 annual dinner...
at 1st...i didn't understand what my sister said...she just said,"Mak...mak..."(we called our grandma from our mother's as Mak)...then, i asked her to give the phone to my mom & when i heard her voice...so sad & almost crying when she called my name....i knew something wrong...huhuhuhu...
i asked my mom whether she want me to go home or not....she just said no need...then i called my dad to comfirm it...he also said the same thing....since i will coming home this 27th of April....just so sad coz...cannot meet her for the last time...

my grandma..."Mak..."...is a very strict person yet loving towards her grandchildren....she often 'membebel' at us..even for small things but at the same time she will gave us some advice about life...i was a naughty girl back there..always being scolded by her...coz love to bully my brother (she love my brother & spoilt him a lot^^)...me & my siblings are closed with her since we are staying with her since we are small...eventhough almost everyday we will be scolded by her...b'coz we are so stubborn...hehehe...

when i'm in secondary school...there was my cousin...who having unuversity graduation ceremony at that time...and my grandma didn't attend that ceremony...since my uncle & aunt didn't bring her together...she said that she didn't mind at all but can feel that she really wanted to watch her grandchild's graduation ceremony...during that time...i really wanted to graduate from university as soon as possible...so she can attend it n not showing those sad eyes again...kinda...weird right?a secondary school girl thinking like a little girl...to tell u the truth...i still thiking of that thing until now...but...

one more thing...the house will be in chaos every morning....since she will be yelling as early as 5.30 a.m, to wake up us for school...the thing is when she woke us up...we will get up & sit on the bed, then when she got out from our room, we would continue our sleep...hehehe...so that's why we hv the yelling everyday...and our breakfast during school days - roti telur, roti sardin, roti bakar, tea, milo....just love it eventhough the breakfast was simple...^^

but...all of the scolding, her voice, her laugh, he yelling gone a year ago...she suffered from stroke...since that day...she didn't talk at all...didn't tell what & how is she feeling...just looked at us...

there are so many memory with here...since we met her everyday since we are small...b4 we can talk & walk...b4 i entered Matrix, b4 i coming here to Indonesia...i always with her...talking to her...sometimes fight with her...in the end...when i said i'm the one who is wrong...she just smile at me...

will be missing her...since i not seing her again when i'm coming home this holiday....n in the future...love u Mak...will always love u & missing u forever...

"sedekahkan Al-Fatihah buat nenekku, Hanim Abd Manan....semoga rohnya dirahmati Allah Taala & ditempatkan bersama roh org2 beriman...Ameen..."

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

the battle will go on...it will never end...-_-''

Assalamualaikum n elo...

finally...the final exam for semester 4 officially ended yesterday with the remedial for OSCE...and...i pass the remedial OSCE~!!!yeah~!!!so much with my optimistic mood~!!!

actually...i had no confident at all while doing the remedial...huhuhuh....seriously lack of confident....i felt that i gonna fail this OSCE~!!!T-T...Alhamdulillah...everything workout just fine...just great~!!!yeah!!

after exam plan?planning to shopping at Bandung & touring to Bogor...hohohoho~...can't wait for it...just follow what my friends hv planned....hope that everything will go on just fine....
as for today...surfing the net all morning....then spend my afternoon till evening at FK, collecting the Blog Contest form & met my juniors (they asked about exam...the tips, what we hv last year for that system....)....then playing games....and now...internet again....hahaha~~
planning to hv some fun at the game center tomorrow...dance pad~!!!miss the game so much~!!!

and...our new baby...Saphira...become more & more naughty day by day...huhuuhuuu...she is so cute....so adorable....finally, she wants to eat yeasterday...and....she has big appetite...didn't stop eating...and become more active than the 1st time she came into this house....it's really a battle....to make sure she likes us,accept us....huhuhuu...

anyway...the battle in our life will never end...we always try to get the best on something...better that anyone else...hoping that this life always full with joy, never felt the pain & so on....as for me...i will take this as a break for a while...a break after 3 weeks of battle (1 week study week + 2 weeks of exam)...huhuhu...hv to prepare my mind for the next battle..the remedial exam and also next semester topic...with the new system...

wish me a very best of luck...i wish all of u every happiness..^^

XOXO - time to be a goody2 gurl? >///<

Thursday, April 9, 2009

i'm free...?

Assalamualaikum n elo...

hehehehe.....i'm free...???
may be yup2...may be nope....dunno what is this feeling actually....i'm done with examination but feel a little bit...empty...yup...dunno why~T-T....

feel excited too...hv less than 3 weeks to go home~...
feel anxious too...hv repeat my OSCE b'coz i fail 2 stations!!!the suturing technique & physical examination for allergy problem....huhuhuhu....hv to repeat these 2 stations again...Alhamdulillah...only 2 stations...if more...dunno what to say...but...not feeling too sad with this one...just feeling free~~~
not as bad what i felt after the SOCA...i passed SOCA but...felt so sad with the result....i'm not aspecting to get that kind of mark...huhuhuhu...maybe..this is my time to get such a strict doctors to evaluate me...huhuhuhuhu...but....Alhadulillah...i passed it...i was so quiet on that day...too moody...too stress out...too down...huhuhuhuhu...but...it's so tiring to be that moody & down....how can people manage to be so down for years?i cannot stand being so quiet & down for only one night...too boring...too lonely....to tired~
i just hv to do my best for the repeat OSCE...GAMBATTE for it!!!

i think that i already said about this...for me...this semester is the most challanging semester...hv too manage between my study and club work...finally~~hahahaha!!!i can laugh now...NO!NOT YET!!!NOT UNTIL I GET MY RESULT!!!NO~~~!!!!
the magazine that i worked on already done & passed them to certain batches...there are some batches that didn't get it....hope they like it....just hope they like it...huhuuhu....

what to tell?hmmm~....just my allergy to pollen & animal dander become more & more prominent now....it can be al acute attack...and can be delayed type too...huhuhuhu...love cats but...they sometimes will make me suffered from the allergy reaction....
but..that's didn't stop me to love those cute creatures...they are too adorable to be left alone~!!!just love they cute attitudes~!!!

spending my time yesterday at Bale 4, karaoke from 10 a.m to 2 p.m with my friends..hehehe...it's fun when u can compare the marks after u sang a song...and distributing the Be In-Pact in the evening...
as for today...spending time at home until noon & when to Mulana to spend time at my friends house...playing with cats...hehehe...

i think only that for today...huhuhuhu...missing my mama...didn't call her for 2 days...huhuhuu...will make sure to call her tomorrow~!!!

XOXO - i am free~!!!

Sunday, April 5, 2009

drilling session...fufufufu~

Assalamualaikum n elo...

drilling session!i hv SOCA tomorrow~!!!the most important test among all!!!today's target...14 cases!!!!yea!!!i can do it b'coz already achieve the target in the morning - all DMS cases until noon...now...gonna continue with another system - HIS...hehehehe...i know i can do it!!!yeah~!!!

the cases for this semester...huhuhu...quite challenging coz all of them hv complecated pathophysiology (for me^^)...and can be related to each other...so...like always, i will list down the cases i hv in this semester...

Dermatomusculoskeletal System (DMS):
  • Burn Injury
  • Acne Vulgaris & Miliaria Crystalina
  • Basal Cell Carcinoma
  • Angina von Ludwig due to Caries Dentis
  • Spondylitis TB
  • Fractures
  • Dislocation
Hematoimmunology System (HIS):
  • Iron Deficiency Anemia
  • Acute Myeloblastic Leukemia
  • Idiopathic Thrombocytopenia Purpura
  • Anaphylactic Shock
  • Steven-Johnson's Syndrome
  • Systemic Lupus Erythematous
  • HIV/AIDS
so...i just hv to review the HIS cases...wish me i can do it tonight...i hv to review on BHP (bioethics), CRP (biostatistic), n PHOP (public health) also...so..a lot of work to catch up tonight~~~!!!!

OK dearest friends...wish me all the best!!!wish me a very good luck~!!!i need the luck for tomorrow...my results for SOCA not only depends on my performance but also the doctors~!!!strict doctors mean...it's hard to get targeted mark...huhuhu...but...hope that i get the doctors who are not too strict but also not too lean in giving the marks....hehehehe

da~...wanna start eating my dinner and continue my mission~!!!

XOXO - hmm...i'm taking my time...playing around~!!!hahaahaaa~~~
.: cherish your every moment in life...be happy :.