again....the same syndrome~

Assalamualaikum n elo...

again...tonight....i hv the same syndrome that i get a few days ago...cannot sleep eventhough i'm really sleepy right now~hahahaha
like always...i will force myself to fall asleep after this....after i post this one~

ok...yesterday...i felt like i just wanna...blame myself for everything...
"can i hate myself now?can i?now?" i thought of that all of the day...dunno why but since i entered this system, the Cardiovascular System (CVS)...i felt totally loss + blur + some kind of stupid being....
i was so...blur with my own LIs...i done the LIs but when i had to present them...i felt totally loss until i dun know how to explain the LIs...i felt like i'm like a clown when i standing in front there...doing thing that i dunno...trying to explain in details but i dun know how...
come on~!!!get back onto ur foot~!!!it's already fourth week & going to the 5th week on Monday...please give me the strength to undergo all this challenges...
why am i like this?why?why i being like this....why?why i'm so speechless during this system...?huhuhuhuhu.....i really wanna hate myself now~

but..that was my feeling yesterday...even though i still felt like an idiot~i hope that i will get to the old me...know what she's talking about + know how to explain her LIs even a little bit....

as for today...felt so frustrated...wanna watch the movie Transformers but the tickets were sold out in the evening~!!!uwwaaaa~!!!
so...finally....we...decided to watch KING...an Indonesian movie that for me...quite interesting & worth it~...hehehehe...a story about a young boy who likes to play badminton, wanna be the world champion & idolized Lim Swie King...

as for the weekend..hmmm..going to Bandung~yeay~!!!shopping time~!!!hehehe....
dun wanna elaborate more about this...will tell u what i'm buying on the next post~

okay..till then friends....tatatata~