again....the same syndrome~

Assalamualaikum n elo...

again...tonight....i hv the same syndrome that i get a few days ago...cannot sleep eventhough i'm really sleepy right now~hahahaha
like always...i will force myself to fall asleep after this....after i post this one~

ok...yesterday...i felt like i just wanna...blame myself for everything...
"can i hate myself now?can i?now?" i thought of that all of the day...dunno why but since i entered this system, the Cardiovascular System (CVS)...i felt totally loss + blur + some kind of stupid being....
i was so...blur with my own LIs...i done the LIs but when i had to present them...i felt totally loss until i dun know how to explain the LIs...i felt like i'm like a clown when i standing in front there...doing thing that i dunno...trying to explain in details but i dun know how...
come on~!!!get back onto ur foot~!!!it's already fourth week & going to the 5th week on Monday...please give me the strength to undergo all this challenges...
why am i like this?why?why i being like this....why?why i'm so speechless during this system...?huhuhuhuhu.....i really wanna hate myself now~

but..that was my feeling yesterday...even though i still felt like an idiot~i hope that i will get to the old me...know what she's talking about + know how to explain her LIs even a little bit....

as for today...felt so frustrated...wanna watch the movie Transformers but the tickets were sold out in the evening~!!!uwwaaaa~!!!
so...finally....we...decided to watch KING...an Indonesian movie that for me...quite interesting & worth it~...hehehehe...a story about a young boy who likes to play badminton, wanna be the world champion & idolized Lim Swie King...

as for the weekend..hmmm..going to Bandung~yeay~!!!shopping time~!!!hehehe....
dun wanna elaborate more about this...will tell u what i'm buying on the next post~

okay..till then friends....tatatata~

rise & shine~

Assalamualaikum n elo...

selamat pagi~! good morning~! ohayo~!
rise & shine~~~!!!!

hv a really good sleep last night....6 hours of sleeping until the alarm woke me up & Saphira meowing outside the room....
but still...i'm feeling fresh now~hAhAhA~~~

hv lecture this morning, at 8 o'clock...then tutorial discussion & clinical skills lab practice after that...owh my~...another busy day~hope that everything is gonna be just fine today~

okay...just a simple post for this morning....a simple greeting for all of those who read my blog..hehehehe...
hope u hv a pleasant day today~ & hope that today is a better day than yesterday~

XOXO - another random post...gomen~!!! "'>_>

sleepy but..cannot sleep...T-T

Assalamualaikum n elo...

again....another random post...
dun hv much purposes writing this post...just wanna spend some time while waiting the right time to fall asleep...

huhuhuhu....
take a cup of mochacino on 9 p.m...the effect until now....the difference is...now i'm sleepy but i cannot fall asleep...

what am i doing just now?hmmm....finishing my case summary (sorry~gomen ne dearest tutor-mates....so sorry coz not giving the summary as soon as possible)
the summary is half done...will continue again tomorrow morning....try to wake up early....

it's already 1 am here...and i'm the only one who not asleep yet....and the surrounding is only...silence....not much sound during this hour....

oooooo....i should go to bed now...force myself to get the sleep that i needed....

I REALLY NEED THE BEAUTY SLEEP~!!!

XOXO - nitey nite & sweety dream~ (what are those?)

one more time...

Assalamualaikum n elo...

again....
wanna wish to my dad & all fathers in the world....

HAPPY FATHERS' DAY

babah..i love u~!!!

XOXO -why bear? babah used to call me "anak beruang" bcoz i'm quite big size when i'm still a little girl...so..he's my papa bear...hehehe

he is...the 'emperor'

Assalamualaikum n elo...

"emperor"?
who is that?
hehehehe....that's my dad...the "emperor" in the house...the one who care & protect about us...about his household....

why i'm calling him the "emperor"?that's b'coz...i hv to follow all of his orders...even though they're sometimes seem unfair to me...but i followed them without any 2nd thought...n surprisingly,i didn't against them at all....

that was during that time...during my teenager years...during my rebelious years (even though i didn't rebel much)...to tell u the truth...i'm a little nerdy + really obedient...
when my dad said that i had to go straight back home after school, i followed that....
when my dad said that i cannot attend the class gathering, i followed that....
when my dad said no boyfriend during my school life, i followed that...
when my dad said i cannot hang out with my friends in the weekends, i followed that....

my biggest fight with him...when i'm 14 years old...i didn't talk to him for almost 2 weeks bcoz so mad at him...he scolded me badly....i know that i'm the wrong one but...dunno....just wanna get mad with him....but in the end...i win...his words at that time made me think again why i'm getting so mad for that..."sampai bile x nak tegur babah?sampai bile x nk ckp dgn babah?x kan babah tegur cm tu pun terus x nk ckp dgn babah lame cm ni?"

that during my highschool life....may be some of u will think that i hv a really boring teenagers life...but i dun hate it...i really grateful that my dad was so strict to me, even until now...

i still remember when i get the scholarship from MARA to study here,in Indonesia....
my dad totally against it...i still remembered his words - "kenapa pandai2 apply pergi Indo tu?"
i'm not applying anything during my matrix days...the offer come to me....
but...that time....that was the 2nd time i stood against him...the 1st time is before entering matrix...
i know...he against it because he worries about me....he dun want me to enter matrix bcoz he dun want me to suffer (that's bcoz the rumors that are totally untrue)....he dunwant me to face any dangers in other people's country...

the funniest words coming from him was really unexpected....he once said to my mom - "Ma, awak x carikan handbag ke tuk Noi tu?"
hehehehe...he was so worried when he noted that i dun hv any handbag....and i'm 18 at that time...may be he thougt that i'm like other girls at that age...so into trendy things...but i'm not that type...i'm more to carefree type...

i respect him so much...may be bcoz of that,i didn't dare to turn against him...
he always busy...but he always tried to spend some time with us...even just for 10 minits or less...
he never shows that he has problems...he tries to keep them from us,from his children....

babah...always busy with his works but...he still hv time for us

my mom said...he was so worried about me...i know that mama...babah dunno how to express his feelings...
he dunno how to show them....i know he's happy with my every achievement....i know he's worried about me everytime...i know that...he's proud with me...and i'm proud having him as my dad...

the "emperor"....love my mom so much..love his princesses dearly...and his prince too...

dearest babah...thanks for ur love & care, thank you everything...sorry for everything too...
thank you for always be there....
i'm happy that u being really strict toward us....to me...without those things...may be i'm not the person i'm used to be now....

babah...Happy Fathers' Day...from me...ur 1st princess...

XOXO - another long post....

ehem..."grammy" award~

Assalamualaikum n elo...

huhuhuhu..my friends really dun hv anywork to do eh....now they tagging among them to do this thing...and me....willl continue this thing...hehehehe

ok...here we go~

1. copy award di atas untuk diletakkan di blog anda.

• already done~
  

2.nyatakan 5 fakta menarik tentang pemberi award ini.

• pojie -a big + tall guy, a little bit childish, likes this cute girl from the same batch^^, always try to act cool, hmmm....i dun remember that we already been in the same tutor, do u?
  
• farahain a.k.a faru - one of my bf, fair + pretty girl, love cute2 things, has an adorable bear named Juju, still single (like me~^^)
  
• cik fun - also one of my bf, already become Mrs.Somebody, hardworking, has a neat handwriting, love green color so much
  
• nadu - my best bf + housemate, love Yamapi + Mizushima Hiro, has sweet voice when singing, sumtimes she can be so clumsy, Saphira l her more than Huda & me....
  

3.setiap blogger mesti menyatakan 10 fakta/hobi diri sendiri sebelum memilih penerima award seterusnye

• love cats so much....can't resist their cuteness~
• always in love with KAT-TUN & L'Arc~en~Ciel....
• most of my tracks in my laptop full with Japanese Songs,espsecially J-pop
• once..hv a dream to become a cartoonist...not full-time but just free-lancing (b'coz i wanna be doctor)
• still single & happy with this status...such a carefree life~
• fav drink - any type of coffee but my choice mocha & capucinno (espesially the ice-blanded one...yummy)
• in highschool, me & my best buddies called ourself as F4 (i'm Da Jie, the sister for Dou Ming Si...at that time Meteor Garden was so popular)
  
• so into stripes now...most of my outfit is stripes....^^
  
• my family is everything for me....
• love my friends so much....
  

4.Anda perlu memilih 10 penerima award seterusnye dan describe tentang mereka

• Huda - my housemate + Miss Emo of TWP07 for the 2nd time
• Alia - my best cousin, we r soul sisters
• Chie2 - my tutor-mate for this system, her blog quite up to date...
• Luqman - the generous one, friendly too
• Cik Bie - active with FB, her blog also frequently update...
• Dila - my sister, just start blogging..hope this award will make her more excited in writing post~
• Lutfi - the Chairman of PKPMI-CB, busy with the palns of orientation for Malaysian students in September....hmmm...his blog is quite interesting but....he rarely update his blog...
• Isma - hmmm....gamer....always has PSP + Nitendo DS in his bag....
• Hadi - controversial posts in his blog
• last but not least...any of my blog followers....thanks for reading my blog....
  

hahahaha...finally...doing this thing is so....tiring....

XOXO - hmmm....is it really ok?

"just like other days"

Assalamualaikum n elo...

just like other days....but today is not the day that i've long waited....
just like other days....but today is not the best day of my life....
just like other days....but today is still worth to be like....
just like other days....but today have a lot things happened & hope that some of them will never happen again in my life....
just like other days....but today i'm grateful that i'm still alive,can walk,can smile,can talk,can sing,can cry,can meet my friends,can do anything that i like~

the most important one....just like other days...i'm happy to be me~!!!

XOXO - will update again later~

those days that i remember...

Assalamualaikum n elo...

it's already mid of June...but for me,June is quite a nostalgic month for me...
why? there are many reasons to say so...the reasons that making me a happy person now....

1stly...on the 1st of June,3 years ago...there's a baby girl born into our family...a cute little girl that having lots of love from all of us...the one that i called "my cute little sister", Didi...she brings lots of joy into the house since she's the youngest + talkative one....we never expecting to hv new member into the house after Nana (she's 12 years old at that time)...but...Didi means a lot to us...she's my parents pride & joy...she's our little sister...
and...i didn't celebrate her 3rd birthday with her this year since the semester & classes already start on that day...but one thing that i really know that..i really love her & miss her...

.:Didi & me:.

next...2 years ago...on 10th of June..there i met my best buddies now...my dearest friends : Huda,Nad,Farah,& Fun...we never thought that being in the same room will make us such good friends...we're having test for coming here right?and having the 2nd interview too from UKM & UNPAD...hehehe...during that time...the 1st person that talk to me (besides Alia coz i already knew her from Matrix) is Nad,through her mom...hehehe...
having all of u as my friend really changing me from the person who is before this really awkward in starting conversation to a person who are really confident in herself....having all of you means a lot to me...i will cherish this forever...

.:Nadu,Faru,me,Fun & Huda:.

.:happy faces (with Ecah & Dil):.

then...during that time too...i met the people in this batch, the TWP07....
nothing much happen doing that moment since that is our 1st meeting...just exchange smiles & laughs...
i do remember Icak who was so talkative & friendly,treating most of the girls like her well-known friends (still doing it now)...Chiechie that really mad with the passport pics of her that really expensive for her...Vic, the one & only non-Malay among us...Lutfi with his "skema" & "cool" appearanced...Faizul the tallest one that i notice...and many more....
we never knew that that very 1st meeting making us friends for now...a really close one...and...we doing so much things together now...worrying each other...having fun & laughs together...

to friends...let's cherish this together....
u guys mean a lot to me...really~!!!

.:during our 1st year...50th Merdeka Day Celebration at Bale 1:.

may our friendship last forever....Ameen~

XOXO - hmmm...happy reading this post~

when it's flu....

Assalamualaikum n elo...

what's gonna happened to me?
i hv this sore-throat for almost 3 days...then without this symptoms gone,i got flu....a bad one i think..having runny nose since morning...i'm sure that my nose is really red now...almost like a clown's nose...huhuhuu....

3 packet of tissues already finished (not included the rolls)...the one thing i hate when it's flu...i felt that my jaw gonna drop out...huhuhu...not only that...i felt all my joints become so 'tired'..."sengal2"...
no~!!!dun tell me it will proceed to fever (although i can feel that my temperature already increase + headache)...

another thing,,,this is not about finding sumthing to not doing my work...but...it's true...this flu + headache making me become so lazy (i know that even during healthy time...me lazy too..hehehehe) to do my assignment...
what assignment?just homework for tomorrow's lab activity...this week we're gonna learn some pharmacology properties on the drugs for angina pectoris (chest discomfort or pain if sumone having myocardiac infarction or in simple word...heart attack)....
i hope that i can finish this assignment eventhough my flu + the headache is killing me...

how i get this flu?dunno...it's start with sore-throat then...walla~!!FLU~!!!
seek for any treatment?nope...just bedrest at home...taking sum panadol...hope this will be better..Insya-Allah...

it's already been a year since i'm with this Little Guy~!!!yup...yesterday 13 June...it's 'happy anniversary' for us..hehehehe....
Alhamdulillah...this Little Guy still functioning really well...helping me in doing my assignments & LIs, playing games eventhough the games is boring...many more...plus online~!!!u know that i'm addicted to internet...thanks to this well functioning, i managed to download all my fav things...especially KAT-TUN's songs,any video-clips,games & many more...
thank you so much Little Guy...hope that u will always in the good condition....love u~!!!

okay...that's all~
will try doing my assignment now...da~

XOXO - who's Little Guy? My beloved laptop~>///<

not in the right mood~

Assalamualaikum n elo...

mood...moody...bringging me down~down~down~!!!
hOhOhO~....am i really ok with this?

ok...once again...i did it...writing in this blog without any purpose...and my mood?hmmm...half ok i think....dunno why but i can feel that sumthing not right...huhuhu..why?feel completely so...dunno how to discribe this feeling...it make me feel uneasy~!!!
OK~!!!forget that sorrow (?)...forget everything that making me unhappy~!!!lead a happy life~!!!ENJOY!!!!YEAY~!!!

feel hungry know...i really need to eat sumthing..since my breakfast only orange juice...hehehee...not in diet (not so into it actually...happy with my figure now~) but dunno why...so into the game just now..playing a really boring games but that boring game making me forget about my meal~!!!no~!!!
i already bought my lunch...will eat it after this while watching VOICE (Eita & Ikuta Toma in this J-dorama~!!!!)

owh...about my newest DVds collection....i added LOVE SHUFFLE Takami Hiroshi & Matsuda Shota) and VOICE...both of them are J-Dorama...already finished wathing LOVE SHUFFLe yesterday..Yay,Panda~!!!
will continue watching VOICE...love the theme..."can u hear the voice of the death?"hahahaha...about Forensic Medicine, finding the cause of the death....huh

OK...that's all..i think...while wathing the J-dorama...i will feel much more happy...gotta eat my lunch now~

XOXO - hv work to do but me...?^^

2nd case but still....?

Assalamualaikum n elo...

2nd week...2nd case..but i'm still blur with this system!
to tell u the truth...learning this system,the Cardiovascular System making me...like having the symptoms of the diseases in this symptoms (huhuhu...minta jauh sgt2~)...palpitations,shortness of breath...huhuhuhu...

the 2nd case...dunno what r we doing actually in the tutorial room...1st we were discussing about the case then...to another topic,the Keliwon (dun know the exact spelling), a program in TV3 Malaysia...hehehe...most of the time...just discussiong things that not related to the case~!!!

then...after discussing the LIs for the day,we started a new issue...Manohara's case...such a hot news here...not really care about this case...but why is this case involve the country?that i want to ask...this problem is a family problem at 1st but why there's people here involve the name or Malaysia in this matter?i know most of u already read about this case...& know more things than me coz i'm not so into this kind of case...just listen when everybody talk about it...

"Is everyone in the royal family in Malaysia can act like this? Can treat their wives according to their own ways, freely?"

these were the Qs that one of the lecturer asked us in the tutorial room...i just smile when i heard the Qs...dunno whether i hv to answer it or not...one of my friend answered, "This case is a family matter...so just wait & see the end of the story, we dun hv the right to get involve..."

i really hate when this kind of issue entering here...it's looked like it will affect the situation & the relationship between Malaysia...
the last time is after the Pilihan Raya Umum Malaysia...when the oppositions almost beat the goverment...there are lecturers who commented about our previous Prime Minister...about Pak Lah & Dr. M....

i only hope that...this situation not affect the willingness of the lecturers to teach us...we come to Indonesia to learn...hope that the lecturers act professionally...they teaching us about professionalism in bioethics but if they not acted like one...so...who should we idolized?

ok..that's all..wanna get some sleep & continue my works tomorrow...nitey nite...

XOXO - peace for the world...love my Malaysia~>///<

emo...

Assalamualaikum n elo...

emo...that's can describe me the best now....

hehehe...dunno what to do actually...

a new month....new semester...i'm in 3rd year in this faculty now~!!!hOhOhO~already start the class on Monday...n just finished the 1st case today...
the word "busy" will play the role now...since:

i hv 3 tutorial case discussion 3 days straight every week - so stressful coz need to find the learning issues & present them on the next day...only hv less than 24 hours to finish them...
hv big event to handle this Saturday...a dinner function....huhuhuhu...really stressful now coz almost all the things are not done~!!!
hv assignment to to...and case summary too since i'm the leader for this week case....
new semester = new system (now is Cardiovascular System) = new things to learn = ...

but...i will still spend some time for myself...since i felt like my life is so empty when i didn't surf the internet or listening to my fav songs (J-pops, L`Arc~en~Ciel, KAT-TUN )
dun separate us...dun take my little guy away~!!!(i called my laptop "little guy"...hehehe)

hmmm...newest track?hmmm....nothing new in my list for now...
wait...just added a song from MiChi, My SunShine (ROCK'A'TRENCH), and Now & Forever (Spontania ft. Yuna Ito)....

no...no....no....i hv headache now...dunno why...i hv this kind of habit...always worrying about other people's problems....other people's works...i'm so nosy....no....too nosy!!!hope that everything will be going well...hope so.....

anyway...wanna say thank you to my assisstant, Shikin for doing a great job in handling the production of Be In-Pact for May-Jun Edition...thank you coz u r willing to do it eventhough u r so busy...i'm so greatful that i hv u as my assisstant in this biro...huhuhu....all the best in ur examination....

nothing much to say...i'm so emo with what happened during this week...yet i'm so grateful for everything i hv...
wanna hv dinner....rest a little bit (continue watching Kuroshitsuji)...then go to sleep (the headache making me so....T-T)...

XOXO-taken from my journal in JPopAsia.com (dated today) & add a little bit...hehehe~

random...again....

Assalamualaikum n elo...

You will never be happy if you continue to search for what happiness consists of. You will never live if you are looking for the meaning of life.
Albert Camus

quite agree with this....

if u think that making other people feel worst or bad...feel completely uncomfortable with certain thing or statement from u will make u satisfied n happy...u wrong actually...u will feel more n more unsatisfied with it...will do the same thing again n again untill u feel satisfied...

XOXO - my fellow friends will understand about this....right guys?

new month~new day~new system....

Assalamualaikum n elo...

yeah...almost a week since i came back from Malaysia...came back from my semester break....nothing much happen during these days...except for the work that i need to do...both coming from the students' association n also from my study....

study?yeah...already start the new semester yesterday...with new system...the Cardiovascular System....hope that i will n can start anew...try to gv a fresh start in this system....
and...during the tutorial session...oh my....being chose as the leader for the 1st case - Congenital Heart Disease...huhuhuhu....for the 1st time....chosen as the leader for the 1st case....GAMBATTE!!!u can do it~!!!
i think....this semester schedule....a little bit pack...with tutorial sessions for straight 3 days...ohohoho....hope that i manage to get my LIs done...all the best for myself...

just finish watching the 12th episode of Kuroshitsuji...yup..an anime...the newest anime that i bought since...hmmm...dunno...but i think that i didn't anime for such a long time....huhuhuhu...love the plot of this anime....butler + air of mystery for the theme...ahahaha...another 12 episodes to go....will watch it again soon~

my LIs?heheheh...i hv LIs actually...gotta start now...physiology of heart..i'm doing the heart sound n murmur..hohoho...

XOXO - hmmm....sumting not quite right....?