Internal Medicine : my feeling after LONG CASE assessment...

بِسْمِ اللَّهِ الرَّحْمَنِ الرَّحِيم

Assalamualaikum n elo...

for more than two weeks...i didn't post anything in this blog...
yeah...i'm sorry...'busy' with my life as student...
hahahaa~

busy...am i???

nope...not that busy...it's just i don't know what to post in this blog...
trying to figure out what kind of story that appropriate to share with you~

for these 2 weeks...i'm being so...shut-in?is that really a word that can describe me?i dunno...but durinh these days...i'm doing lots of reflection about my long case assessment & short case examination...

can i just tell you what happened to my long case?

my long case assessment was on the 7th week of Internal Medicine posting...
and it was the worst thing i ever done...and i still can't get over it...
felt so insulted and...huhuuhh~
i really hate it...

insulted why?that's between me & the patient that i get for the assessment...
i can take it if my skill & my knowledge were not sufficient for the assessment...but what that patient said to me was the worst,an impact to me...
it's ok, you can say all you want when the specialist was there examining me, you can ignore, insult, & hurt my feeling at that time...

but that will never change anything coz i'm determine to go on in this medical school...you are the 1st hard patient that i got to handle...

"owh~you get that patient?she's nice~she has findings when you do physical examination on her~"
hahaaa~sadly guys,i would like to ask you - do you even spend time clerking her?!! or you just come to her to listen to the positive findings that she had on auscultation?!!
i bet you just come to her & ask - "can we check you for a while?"
if there's a medical student came & clerked her, she will not be so "SHOCK"ed with some of my questions...like she never being ask about that before...

dunno whether that just an act or what

you get to see a patient's true self when you clerking them...
their attitude, voice, body language...
yup,i can see that the patient not really really comfortable to be 'used' for exam...
if that patient was willing, he/she will gladly to cooperate + gave some hints to the students
[like in my short case examination~will tell you about this in the next post]

ok...
i cannot turn back time...
i admit that i'm not really prepared for the long case...
but what happened between me & the patient is not something that i expected to happen...
thank God that the patient was cooperative during physical examination, yeah...she had the positive findings that parallel with her disease/condition...

i'm just hoping that...i will pass this assessment...

yeah...
this is the beauty of medicine
you need to know the art to manage the patient + how to handle/manage this kind of situation...

i love my life

XOXO - slice of life...not always as sweet and tasty like slice of cake...