too much sugar...then...low sugar...

Assalamualaikum n elo...

so hungry~~
why?
i don't take any dinner last night....had headache & decided to sleep early...as early as 7 or 8 p.m i think...huhuhu...just woke-up 30 minutes ago...with empty stomach...

too much sugar...
yeah...that's 2 days ago...
why?

1st ate sweet corn...then tiramisu mousse~

yummy~
(taken from http://www.chandlersicecream.com/)

then yesterday...the only meal that i took is fried rice...
yeah...no other meal than that...i only remember that meal...and some crepes that Ecah bought...

so now...
i'm so hungry but dunno what to eat~
biscuits?maggi?cereal drink?o just mushroom cream soup?
or just continue sleeping?hehehe~~

will having fun today~
have some activities with the juniors~my lovely TWP juniors~
really excited waiting for today~^^
hope that everything will go on well~so well~~

XOXO - my main problem now...money~

serba tak kena....

Assalamualaikum n elo...

hari yang memenatkan...
....dan cam sume Noi wat hari ni x kena....
x tau kenapa...tiba-tiba jadi depress...
x tau kenapa...tiba-tiba je minta maaf kat Nad tadi...terasa sume yang Noi wat pagi ni leh membuatkan dia terasa hati....
x tau kenapa...tiba-tiba je nak makan macam-macam....dah tau ade problem still nk spend ntah apa-apa....

bangun awal pagi ni...coz ade discussion SOCA sebelum lab start...dah la baca gitu-gitu je kes yang dibagi...x prepare pun draft sendiri,just dengar n absorb je ape yang orang present...

pastu...lab pagi ni cam lost skit...x bawa buku histology,sape suruh...dah terkial-kial cari jawapan....thanks kepada orang yang meminjamkan buku n orang yang menerangkan....

time tengah hari...Alhamdulillah...dapat makanan from orang lain...hehehe...rehat2 jap...wat flip-chart tuk presentation LI...dah settle sume,bergeraklah ke A.4.2...kena uruskan kerja SPR...skali lagi...Noi wat muka blurr...ntah la..cam lost semacam....T^T
kepada yang memberikan kerjasama tgh hari tadi, mencalonkan nama YDP n TYDP...terima kasih sgt2 yer....dearest senior, sori kalu muka Noi cam ape je tgh hari tadi...

time tutorial...kepala ku kosong~cuba memahamkan physiology glomerulus, oncotic pressure, hydrostatic pressure, Starling's equation....
nak jawab soalan pun pikir dalam2...try nk absorb ape yg ditanya....tapi nasib baik la leh jawab...
Alhamdulillah...
LI yang Noi dah buat tu pun kena baca balik, kena fahamkan balik....

lepas kelas tadi...dengan tekadnya...bergerak ke JATOS...hantar hp yg wat hal tu gi service...
memang pemusnah mood betul...seriously, Noi mmg terasa sgt high + happy hari tu...tapi semangat tu jatuh menjunam bila hp ni wat hal semalam..sampai la ke hari ni perasaan 'down' tu still ada...
"hp nya perlu di instal ulang"..hoho..solution yang sama dicadangkan di internet...tp Noi x berani nak wat sendiri...hantar je la kedai...
duit pun melayang...
hope lepas ni no more masalah yer hp ku syg~hp ni la buah hati ku~pengubat lara ku~hahaha...

ok..more things to catch-up now...
Noi memang kena tambah fuel semangat + positif dalam diri ni...bukannya x ada tapi tak cukup kot..Noi sendiri dapat rasakan yang "happy-go-lucky" tu makin berkurang...
GAMBATTE~~!!!
let the strong ones survive~YEAH!!!

XOXO - "bateri dalam diri dh mula low..."

ini memang satu ujian....

Assalamualaikum n elo...

lepas satu...satu lagi datang menimpa...baru je nk hepi2,nk ok2 skit hati ni,perasaan ni...
sekali...bila bangun je tido pagi tadi...hp ku x leh nk on...huhuhu...tak pasal-pasal bad mood balik pagi ni...datang kelas dengan muka yang sangat depress...
cuba bayangkan...hp tu still dalam keadaan yang elok sebelum tido...bateri full...boleh sms n call orang lain masa tu...bila bangun je tido pagi ni,tgk hp tu dah x hidup...
nasib baik bangun awal...kalau tak...tambah lagi cerita nk mencarut di pagi hari~

time2 macam ni la nak rosak...time2 tgh busy n hp sgt2 diperlukan...
nk uruskan Be In-Pact...kerja-kerja SPR....nak hantar JARKOM...nk settlekan apa-apa yang patut untuk 'party' TWP Sabtu ni...dengan Bandung Games lagi...
memang haru la tak ada hp ni....dah la sume nombor2 penting dalam hp tu...save dalam memory hp...kalu memory sim card tu x de la nk kisah ape sgt...

igt nk terus gi repair hp tu lepas kelas tadi...tapi pikir2 balik try la caj dulu ke...mana la tau leh on balik hp ni...
dengan penuh harapan...akhirnya...tak sepertiyang diharapkan...still camtu gak...still sama cam pagi tadi...
tekan on...key-pad menyala...skrin keluar logo Sony Ericsson...pastu padam balik....pastu on balik tp skrin still gelap...mati balik...on balik...off balik....sampai malas nk layan hp ni..cabut je bateri die...

ape2 pun...sabar je la...
teringin nk belasah ais krim banyak2 tapi duit la kene consider...
teringin nk jerit kuat2 tapi kesian kt org lain....
teringin nak buat macam2 tu tenang kan hati ni...tapi kena consider macam2 juga...dengan LI n lab yang bersentuh lagi...dengan SOCA review tak buat lagi...

jangan nak stress dulu....tunggu je la..hujung minggu ni ke Noi gi hantar repair...tapi kesian plak kat Nad..dah la guna hp dia...T^T
kalau tak kerana hp tu...mungkin Noi still rasa tenang hati lagi...

XOXO - lari budget bulanan~haish...

PERMAI 2010 ended but...

Assalamualaikum n elo...

Finally..the program end..the 3 exciting n full with knowledge ended..

Final slot...
More on Uthmaniyyah Empire...learn how to success, how to be true Muslim n professional based on the history...
To be a success one...learn from history...once forgotten,the same failure may be repeated again..

Love to hear more...learn more...think more...wanna be more than i am now...
But hv to that slowly...hv to change one by one...hv to be confident~

This not the end but this is a new start for a new challenges...
May be i will face a really big n hard challenge in the future...but i hope that i can manage it with the knowledge that i get from PERMAI 2010...
Insya-Allah...

Thank you for this great oppurtinity...thank you for all the knowledge n advice given by Ustaz Hasrizal n Kang Harri...thank you for such a great memory n something worth to be remembered...

Just relaxing on my bed...may be i will take a short nap after this...
C u in the next post...

XOXO - i'm gonna love myself more after this..love yourself, hv faith in yourself, then u can do it...^^

2nd day...

Assalamualaikum n elo...

Another fun n exiciting day at PERMAI..hehe..not trying to said 'rugi x dtg'..but i'm just too excited joining this program...

Already brief a little on d morning slots in d previous post..
Now..d aftrnoon n evening session..another brief explanation about today's slot...trying my best with this hp...

The module...given by Kang Harri,a well-known 'mentor' for many workshops in Indonesia...
Wanna be d best?
Wanna be extraordinary?
Wanna be success?
Wanna be a winner?
Wanna be happy?
We can make all of them come true if we believe...
That's what i get from d module...not included jumping when standing up n release anger in 5 minutes...^^

Games - stepping ballons to conquer d opponents...it's more to war...hehe...
girls n war?
Hmmm...>>'''

After Isya' prayer,another slot with Ustaz Hasrizal..
this time..the topic - "Islam: Ibadah, akhlak, & keluarga"
Managed to refrain myself from falling asleep...dunno how many sweets that i ate...

Ok..that's all..sleep time..nite2

XOXO - i miss my friends~

Waiting for d next..

Assalamualaikum n elo...

We r waiting for d afternoon session..aftr a whole morning slots were full with fun n knowledge...

"Tomorrow is a mystery,yesterday was history,n today is a gift..that's why we called it present"
Ok..remember d quote?it's from Kung Fu Panda...
Association with PERMAI?Yup..get to knew about history today...from Adam a.s until Uthmaniyyah Empire (kpd kwn2 TWP07,kmi yg pergi ni dpt la review psl Tamadu Islam yg bkl kite blajr kt UKM nnt)...

To be excellent,u hv to believe in urself..
That's for d 2nd one...

Overall..love it!
Ustaz Hasrizal gave such a good example in explainin his points..
Alhamdulillah..i'm glad i came here..i'm grateful i can learm something here..

Wanna post more but it's hard to type trough hp...
Next slot will start soon...
Da~

XOXO - more fun time~^^

1st day...

Assalamualaikum n elo...

Finished d 1st day...n i'm trying to sleep now...
Hope that i can get some sleep. .hv a long day await nxt..

1st slot n ice-breaking session were fun..
Trying to survive n get along with new group of friends..n new people too..
So far so good..

Ok..this song making me sleepy..
Nitey nite..

XOXO - can't wait for d next...

PERMAI bermula...

Assalamualaikum n elo...

Akhirnya,hari yg ditunggu-tunggu tiba...PERMAI atau Perhimpunan Mahasiswa Islam Malaysia Se-Indonesia...

Kt dlm bas skrg..on d way ke Politeknik Pos Bandung..satu tmpt yg baru bg Noi coz x nah smpai sne pn lg..

Nak cari pengalaman n menuntut ilmu..sbb tu la join program ni..nk tmbh knln gak..luaskan jaringan komunikasi..n cuba tmbh lg memori manis kt sni~^^

Ok..tu je..
Kalu rajin Noi update blog ni time dlm PERMAI ye..

XOXO - hope sume brjln dgn lncr..insya-Allah..

i think i know why...

Assalamualaikum n elo...

again...this week...last 2 days...i experienced insomnia...
the 1st day...i only managed to fall asleep after Subuh....
then the next day...again...but i 'golek-golek' on my bed for a long time before falling asleep....
not under influenced of caffeine...but still cannot sleep...
so...again...last night...i just jump onto my bed at about 8 pm...trying to sleep...finally after few moments of 'golek-golek' (again...), i managed to fall asleep n woke up this morning at 5 a.m~yeay

so...tried to find the reasons behind this story....
check whether it's associated with PMS...

"Premenstrual syndrome (PMS) (also called PMT or premenstrual tension) is a collection of physical, psychological, and emotional symptoms related to a woman's menstrual cycle." (Wikipedia)

"Premenstrual syndrome (PMS) is a recurrent luteal phase condition characterized by physical, psychological, and behavioral changes of sufficient severity to result in deterioration of interpersonal relationships and normal activity." (eMedicine)

the truth finally reveal...YES...
i think this is the 1st time 1 experience insomnia during my PMS...
hahaha~kinda making me stress actually...knowing something about this...
to girls n others who read this blog, these are other symptoms that i took form eMedicine (my fav medicine reference in the internet^^):

"The categories of PMS symptoms are as follows:

• PMS-A (anxiety)
  • Difficulty sleeping
  • Tense feelings
  • Irritability
  • Clumsiness
  • Mood swings
• PMS-C (craving)
  • Headache
  • Cravings for sweet foods
  • Cravings for salty foods
  • Cravings for other types of food
• PMS-D (depression)
  • Depression
  • Angry feelings for no reason
  • Feelings that are easily upset
  • Poor concentration or memory
  • Feelings of low self-worth
  • Violent feelings
• PMS-H (hydration)
  • Weight gain
  • Abdominal bloating
  • Breast tenderness
  • Swelling of extremities
• PMS-O (other)
  • Dysmenorrhea
  • Change in bowel habits
  • Frequent urination
  • Hot flashes or cold sweats
  • General aches or pains
  • Nausea
  • Acne
  • Allergic reactions
  • Upper respiratory infections"

ok...
i admit that..this time...my PMS...a little bit different than the previous one...
not just mood swing...not just acne problem...
i am far more sensitive...n also loose the cool side of me...

1st...last week...out of blue...i apologized to all my TWP07 friends via Facebook status...feeling that the uncomfortable atmosphere around them were cause by me...
yup, i really felt that way..if i'm not doing that...this situation will never occurred...
b'coz of this status...it making one of my senior buzz my Y!M...asking whether i'm ok or not...
he asked again yesterday...but truly i thank you for the concern...i'm really OK...i can manage this situation...
so embrassing when other people asked about this...

2nd...this week...i loose the cool side of me...
hahaha...
to my friends...i'm one of the people in TWP07 that can control the temper...but...because i'm too annoyed with certain people behavior at that time...BOOM!
there u go...silence in the air...
to my tutorial group members, sorry for the commotions...i really didn't mean it to do that~T^T

so...depression...may be...
it not...face & mouth said it's ok...but deep in side, still hv the worries...
i'm sure that we, TWP07 feel that way...can we called it "UKM-syndrome"?
they hv high expectation on us...so...we can do it right~?
ha-ha-ha....

ok...hv to start packing for PERMAI tomorrow....
then...hv to continue doing my LIs...
GAMBATTE NE~!!!

XOXO - for the 1st time...i'm posting on my PMS...open-minded?

That's d way it is...

Assalamualaikum n elo...

Just finished eating at The Stone Cafe with MAKSIMAL commitee member..

So much fun we had today.full with laughter..
Another sweet memory to add in my life diary..
Really glad i hv d chance to meet all of u,to know all of u,to work with u guys...

On d way back to Jatinangor now..so all of us a little bit quiet coz already 'kenyang'...
Hahaha..

Pics on our todays activity will be uploaded later..
Eat-shopping-having fun-movie-eat again-pics taking...

XOXO - i typed this last night in d car...supposed to post this yesterday trough my hp but something occurred..

Makin nakal...

Assalamualaikum n elo...

Rupe anak kucing kepenatan...heheh..tido dgn lena skali kt riba Noi..comel sgt2 la 2 si kecik ni...

Makin nakal..
Tu je yg leh ckp psl 2 si kecik ni..
Terlompat ke sne,berlari ke sni,cakar2 situ,gigit2 sume,kejar2 kaki org..
Haish~x diam mulut Noi td...nk suruh depa ni duk diam2 kejap n x kaco Noi..tp cm x laku je..makin menjadi ade la...

Yg pnting..
Ikky n Chiyo pnyeri idup kitorg...
Bila terpikir masa terpaksa berpisah dgn 2 si kecik ni n Saphira..pilu plak rse hati ni..

Huhuhu...

XOXO - lg 1 bulan AGM PKPMI-CB,lg 4 bulan kt bumi Bandung ni...semangat3x~!!

2 days insomnia - 12 hours of sleep

Assalamualaikum n elo...

finally~
at last...i manage to get 'some' sleep...for almost 12 hours~yeay!
it's really stressful when u cannot sleep when u really want to....

for 2 nights...i experienced insomnia...i think...in d end, i ended up finishing all my assingments...my LIs, lab homeworks, the logos...then i tried to sleep after Subuh....in d end...it's useless T^T
then...yesterday...i felt asleep after coming back from class...woke up at almost 11 pm~then sleep again shortly after that and got up 4 o'clock this morning~
until now~still feeling good~~^^


ok...hv to move on~
hv to think about what to wear to go to class now...hv to go out early coz i hv meeting before the lecture...
only one lecture today~huhuhu

XOXO - hope that i can sleep again tonight~

geram tp syg~

Assalamualaikum n elo...

akhir2 ni...terasa cam jadi mak plak...bukan Noi je,tp Nad n Huda pun mesti terasa camtu gak kot...
ye la...mana tak nye...kejenye membebel kt 2 si kecik kt rumah ni - Ikky & Chiyo...

Ikky (hitam-putih) & Chiyo (cokelat)

si kecik berdua ni dh pandai keluar dari kotak diorg, berlari sana-sini, kejar kaki org...cakar sana,gigit sini...
terkedu 2 ekor ni bila Noi tinggi kan suara semalam...geram sgt dgn diorg...tak reti duk diam2...lari sana-sini...
benda yg letih...ajar 2 anak kucing ni membuang kt litter box...
hahaha...mcm2 bende kot jadi...
puas membebel + jentik2 telinga anak kucing ni...akhirnya...tau gak kegunaan litter box tu...bangga pun ade gak~^^
tp..perjalanan masih lagi jauh...x sempurna lagi kot...kne monitor gak diorg wat ape kt litter box tu...

dan Saphira...
still camtu...still perangai manja2 lg walaupun dh jadi mak...
still mcm anak kucing, main2 gak dgn reben yg kitorg sediakan tuk anak dia...
still comel n badan makin berisi~yeay~~


semalam genap sebulan usia Ikky & Chiyo...
nakal diorg makin menjadi...
comel diorg pun makin bertambah...
jadi...makin bertambah kot kitorg punya bebelan...^^

nape Noi x tido lagi?
satu...keje x siap lagi...lab assignment hampir siap...LI pn sama...
tinggal logo tuk Bandung Games je...
yg ke-2...Noi tak ngantuk lagi~!!!x tau kenapa...tanpa kopi pun leh bertahan lagi...

ok...sambung blk wat keje~

XOXO - geram2 pun...kami bertiga sayang kucing 3 ekor ni~^^

What the....

Assalamualaikum n elo...

Just coming back from campus..huhu..lots of thing to be done by today but i already feel tired...
Wanna use this last energy b4 taking my nap...

Today's lectures..
Should i say ok?may be,they are really helpful...
But d lecturer...kinda pissed me off...
Too strict?i'm ok with that..but not ok with his attitude..
A studnt came late..he asked that studnt to sit outside..d studnt just showed calm face n smiled while he 'membebel'...
"r u ok?why r u just keep smiling?do u hv mental illnes?should i recommend u to a psychiatric?or r hv any problem?ur parents got divorce yesterday o what?"
My~my~
That's too much doctor...way too much...
I cried a bit aftr that studnt go outside..dunno what's d expression at that time...
Seriously..if i was d studnt,i already cry at that time..his words were so..ARRGGHHH!!

That's d 1st lecture..
Next one..he gv lecture on bioethics..
ha-ha-ha
That's all...dun wanna judge him more..
I really appreciate his willingness to teach us but please..be more concern about people's feeling...

Huhuhu...
Today's challenges - LIs,Lab assignment,Bandung Games logo,PKPMI meeting at night..

So...bye2~

XOXO - my hands..tired..long blog post from hp i think...

ha-ha-ha

Assalamualaikum n elo...

in progress doing my LIs...
yup...today...new system to be learned...Genitourinary System...
new tutor friends....
new skills to be mastered...not only for OSCE but also preparation for next semester/year...
new cases to add in my SOCA list...


inadequate...yup~
inadequate of knowledge...hv to learn more~yeah!!!
inadequate of time...maybe...but i seldom felt the pressure to face exam...but still...lack of time to covered all the cases + skills....hope that i managed to go through this final exam smoothly~
inadequate....inadequate...inadequate...T^T

back to work~^^

XOXO - that cat is so~~~cute!!!

Happy Birthday~^^

Assalamualaikum n elo...

To my dearest friend n housemate,Huda (d one on d right)...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY~!!!

Hope dat u will always happy n get whatever dat u wish for...
May Allah bless u~

XOXO - Sorry coz just celebrate with KFC meal..hehe

time is running out...

Assalamualaikum n elo...

ok...
i have to wake up from all these sweet dreams~
i have to stop day-dreaming...
i have to get serious~

is it too late for this?
hmmm....is it OK?
ha-ha-ha


actually..i was looking at the academic calender this morning...
just to check-out about some dates in April...suddenly remembered about some event that i being ask to help with...
huhuhu...i'm really so in to do something that makes my life busy~
back to the topic...when looking at the calender...it is approximately 8 weeks to final Semester 6 exam...wow~that is soon enough~
that's mean...about 2 months the final exam will come...
that's also mean...i hv about another 3-4 months here...in Indonesia...before returning to Malaysia..to UKM...

to tell u the truth...
i felt a little bit sad actually...dunno why...that feeling suddenly came everything i think about this matter...
i think that i'm gonna miss my life here~the people i knew...
my leisure + happy time at Bale 1 when i was in 1st year, my lazy days in 2nd year, & my busy 3rd year life...

ok...
back to reality~
have to work hard...

books..please be my companion~~

XOXO - to friends...to seniors & juniors...all d best in ur exam...

what to do~?

Assalamualaikum n elo...

what to do?
if yesterday i spend my time playing games & tidying my notes + books...
today...i read mangas since morning~
ok...not actually fully reading mangas...i played with Ikky & Chiyo for a while~
then...opened my laptop...read Hapi Mari & other mangas..now - Barajou no Kiss~

hahaha~
that's all...just to kill some time~

XOXO - what am i doing actually~?

Mlm yg sejuk...

Assalamualaikum n elo...

Mlm yg sejuk...
Rasa malas pun brtmbh tp x boleh manjakan diri sangat,esok still ade paper..jadi rajin2 kan diri sendiri nk study ye...

Mlm yg sejuk...
Saphira sendiri x tahan sejuk,sampai pindah tempat tido,dari kotak ke belakang laptop Noi... Kejap lg die masuk balik kotak tu..tido dengan anak2 die...

Mlm yg sejuk...
Noi nk sambung buat kerja tadi,dh puas rehat n main game...sekarang masa tuk brusaha..

Semoga Allah permudahkan diri ini n rakan2 seperjuangan dalam menjawab soalan exam esok...

Kita semua boleh!!!^^

XOXO - hmm...nk wat ape ye esok?hoho~

Ape lagi ni...

Assalamualaikum n elo...

Ok..Noi dh slmt kt Jakarta..tp..terkandas kt cni..

Tadi terkandas kt airport Senai coz flight delay sejam (gmbr ats), skrg terkandas kt parking area,dlm kereta,x tau la diorg tunggu ape..

Kalau hari tu,kereta yg patut hantar Noi x jadi hantar Noi ke Jakarta coz Noi x jwb call,x tau dijemput jam berapa n kena tinggal..hari ni hal yg lebih kurang sama jd balik..kereta yg patut amik dh balik,ada keje katanya..so Noi tersangkut la kt cni..
Optimis skit walaupn panas,diorg tunggu bdk2 lain yg nk ke Bandung gak kot..
Hehehe...

Ape je la lg ujian yg Noi bakal dpt hari ni?
Ya Allah..kuatkan keimanan dan kesabaran ku ini..
Nk exam esk pagi ni..mudah-mudahan semua baik2 je ye...

Ok..nk sambung past year Qs lg..coz once kereta ni gerak,Noi nk tido~

XOXO - saya nk nangis lg dh ni...T^T

saya dah nak balik semula~

Assalamualaikum n elo...

ok...
hati dah mula rasa berat....
mata pun mcm nk berair je skrg ni...
lg 3 jam je lg...bertolak ke airport...
huhuhu...x nk blk Bandung lg tp kne blk gak coz esok exam...

hehehe....
terigt sorg junior ni tegur trough YM smlm...tegur coz mcm x serius nk exam...
Noi pun bls balik...luaran je dik~dalam..."doki-doki~"
ade la gak buka skit2 buku n study....x sangka rupanya nk leh study kt rumah ni~
ni rupa saya 2 mlm lps...
x lme lepas tu jadi cam ni...
apekah~

macam2 ujian kalau nk wat benda baik...
macam2 dugaan yg datang kalau nk berjaya ni...
yang penting SEMANGAT dan NIAT kena la betul....

kepada rakan2 TWP07..all d best tuk exam esok ye~kita sme2 berusaha tuk mencapai kejayaan yg kita idam2kan~
kepada senior2 FK06 yg exam gak minggu ni...all d best gak~
kepada rakan2 lain yg exam gak...good luck dan hope korg sume peroleh apa-apa yang korg inginkan~

tu je...
cek beg tu semula sebelum bertolak~
Happy 2010 sume~^^

XOXO - to infinity...and beyond~!!!