when i saw my name....

بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمَنِ الرَّحِيم

Assalamualaikum n elo...

hiatus for almost 2 months...
and i'm here again...
a really busy semester...till i dunno what to post in this blog...
too many things happened each day, making me hard to share it here...

but now is different...
coz i am too happy right now...and i would like to share it with you who read this blog~
*more lucky stars* (￣▽￣)ノ＿彡☆彡☆

i just finised my final examination last week and this semester was the most stressful semester i ever had since i entered medical school...
is not that i never encounter any stressful event before this...i'm sure i had shared about i failed once for my SOCA during my pre-clinical years in UNPAD...
but this semester is different...i had this unsecured feeling since the first day i entered the semester, during Orthopedics Department posting...yea i enjoyed the posting so much but i did worried about the examination...
and the next posting in this semester - Pediatrics Department posting...a really nice posting eventhough the seniors already 'warned' about the hardship in the posting...and yet i tried to enjoy the time while i was in the posting (and i really did) but i stuttered during my short-case exam...
i am so sure that...oh my~ i had to work SO HARD for the theory and OSCE

.....still had time to play around with camera...

during study week...i don't want to remember how stressful i was till i dunno what else to do with the books & the past-years questions...
but i tried so hard to revice back all the subjects (thank God i did some notes during the postings, so i just read them back)...
but at the end of the week, i felt so tensed-up...and i chose to have fun all day, just to release all the stress...
[will post about it later...what i did on that day]

during the examination week...i don't know why, i feel like "whatever will be, will be~"...
i just wanted to finish the examination fast but at the same time i was too afraid about the result...
and i had been worrying about it for the whole week...

"it's really embarrassing if you fail the examination..."
that's what babah said to me when i was at home last weekend...
and i was really scared if i couldn't fulfill his expectation, how will he feel later?
i know my parents keep-on praying for my success and so do i...

and the time finally came on 16th of March 2012 at 3 p.m...
ok, i looked at my result 2 hours later coz i slept just to reduce the palpitation, the nervousness, the...all the mixed feelings that i had for the whole day...
i walked towards the board...look at the paper...searching for hope...and i saw my name there...
Alhamdulillah...i passed all the posting during my 1st semester and now i passed both of the postings for this 2nd semester...

Alhamdulillah...
seeing my name there means a lot to me...
i get to listen to mama's joyful voice and i'm sure babah is smiling when he heard about this...
i need to think about my next step now coz now I'M A FINAL YEAR MEDICAL STUDENT...
i have another one year to learn, one year to prepare myself before i can be called "DOCTOR"...
one year is a short time...it's not too before i have to work independently...
i will work really hard...i need to work really hard...

another year to wear this student card...

Alhamdulillah...
thank you for all the wishes and the prayers...
i am really grateful that i pass this examination...
Alhamdulillah...
thank you...thank you...thank you...
i love you...

a doctor will be too... :)

XOXO: final year...uwaaahh~ *doki2* ♡o｡.(✿ฺ｡ ✿ฺ)