بِسْمِ اللَّهِ الرَّحْمَنِ الرَّحِيم
sleepy + headache + tired....
those what i feel now...
already asleep for almost 5 hour - i asleep all afternoon!!!
for the 1st time since i entered medical school...i missed lecture!!!i miss my 1st concept lecture in HUKM today!!!
huhuu...
eventhough there's no attendance taken...but i feel so depressed now...
i really want to attend this lecture but...please forgive me~T^T
why?!
why i felt so tired???
i had my 1st ever on-call last night - working night shift from 7 p.m.
to 7 a.m....
but i came a little bit late yesterday so i top-up my shift until about 9 a.m. this morning...then i straight away go to the ward, for ward round & lecture after that...
then...go back home...just wanna sleep for a while but ended up sleeping until almost 5 p.m.!!!!
sorry~i'm so sorry with myself~sorry for everyone~sorry for the lecturer!!!!
my 1st on-call....
tiring but exciting!!!
that's why i need to build-up my stamina for the rest of clinical years coz i will be facing more on-calls in the future....
came a bit late...hehee...
then look at the board to see if there's any patient in the room...
"no new case..." - that's what a mid-wife told us...
we wait and wait until almost 10 p.m. - one entered & delivered at midnight.....
before midnight..there's another patient coming in with water broke....
after that another one entered....
the next one entering the room after subuh...
felt so sleepy while waiting for the mother to deliver...but cannot fell asleep....
1st - we will occasionally going to the room that we being assigned to...asked whether the patient is OK or not...
2nd - very much excited every time the labor room's phone rang...meaning - may be they will be a mother who want to deliver~~
staying in the labor room....
my 1st on-call...1st ever preparing the room for the mother in labor (checked the instruments + saline drip)...1st time observe the process of delivery...
a really wonderful moment...
from the very beginning when the mother came with active phase of labor (the cervical dilatation = 4cm)...
watching how they trying their best to bear the pain...trying to 'push' to deliver the baby...
watching how the room became so noisy with doctors & midwives voice, encouraging the mother to 'push'...
when the baby was born...started to cry...there's relieve & smile on her face...
will watch a few more deliveries after this...
trying to look at the technique to conduct the delivery...how to care for the both lives...how to safe them...
when i'm ready...i will conduct the delivery...
please give me the strength & braveness to overcome this!!!!
"mama was going through the same thing as this, right?" - that was my only thought when i'm seeing these mothers who admitted to the labor room during my on-call
i'm really missing her right now....
i always thought when is the last time i saying "THANK YOU" to her...
"THANK YOU" for accepting me as part of your life...
"THANK YOU" for caring & loving for me when i'm still growing in your womb...
"THANK YOU" for bearing the hardness & pain during pregnancy + delivery....
"THANK YOU" for taking care of me with all your love...
"THANK YOU" for everything....
.: mama...your five children love you...forever... :.
XOXO - when is the last time you said "THANK YOU" to your mother?
*pic taken from Flickr
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