tears & cry...

Assalamualaikum n elo...


not being emotional here....or being a drama queen...
just wanna share how is my feeling lately...

the reasons that i easily in tears this week...dunno...just too angry,pissed-off,tension....
too angry until i dunno what to do except for crying...
too piss-off until i think that if i'm not crying i will totally blow out...
too tension until crying is the only solution to ease me...to ease myself....
may be this is my newest mechanism of action to act on this feelings....

dunno...the 1st time i think i showed my tears to others....except to the close ones or accidentally seeing me crying....
pls dun think anything about that...just keep it to yourselves if u ever saw me crying...
seeing me crying & i'm telling u that i'm crying are 2 different things ok...eventhough it's still crying,they are 2 different situations...

1st...about SBK & ERP....
thanks to u...to ur 'lembab' service & processing my form...i had to cancel my plan to go back on this Thursday....had to cancel my intention to present at my aunt's wedding....my last aunt that get married on next Saturday~!!!
it's already more than a week...a standard duration to process the form...but...i asked them since Monday...they kept saying the next day..
finally...on Thursday, i went back again to ask about the ERP letter....they said,"On Tuesday..."..
i was like "WTF~?!!!" (only in my heart...too vulgar to say it outloud)
too angry + pissed off...i just went away from that place...
the thing that making me more angry...my friend that sent the form later than me already there the letter...taking less than a week...
if the form is gone...just say it is gone...dun make some excuses like that...making me a lot more mad...

2nd...yesterday....the car to Bandung...
u already read the previous post,right?quite a story right?
eventhough we finally went to Bandung...but the story behind that...totally making me so mad...
just which part of our pronunciation of "Ganesha di Cibiru" is not understand by the driver?
we already said that "CIBIRU"...but...why the driver still went to "GANESHA di UJUNG BERUNG"?are u have some kind of problem with ur ears, Mr. Driver?
when i heard about that 'minor' mistake, i just went to tears + remembered how my week being so un-...un-...not so right for me....
it's really a suicide...totally suicidal....

3rd...Pertandingan Berbalas Pantun....
yeah...i'm entering pantun,as one of representative of TUAH....
wah~so stressful...coz...all i think...all the pantun that i tried to make don't make sense...not 'special', not 'creative' at all...
with my style in declamation the pantun still upside-down....huhuhu...
Ya ALLAH...please...please give me the strength & passion for this competition...please give me some idea in making the questions...i really need them....
still hv 2 more days before the competition...
wish me all the best~

thinking back all the things had done....
this year...is truly a tearful year for me...
i think that i never cried as much as this year....
with exam...tasks....the expectations from others...situations....

crying....tears....
just let them come out if needed....
u will feel better after that....

XOXO - not "gembeng" or "kememeh" yer....

Car..ooO Car..

Assalamualaikum n elo...

This certainly a test for me...for Nad,Hanim n Lutfi too..we already stuck here for 1 hour bcoz our rented car hv prob..major prob i think..

Now..
I'm sitting on d bench,typing this post..
Nad n Hanim still trying n negotiating from other car rental company...feel sorry coz cannot help but thanks to u 2..
Lutfi with his phone..browsing d Facebook..

Ok..i really feel totally mess-up now..but not too stress or moody or emo..

Hope d car will be here soon...T-T

XOXO - it's hot today~

a long day for me...

Assalamualaikum n elo...

what a day...for me....huhuhuhu....
being worrying & a little bit stressed out during the day.....
yup...it's hard...so hard...

what's happened?hmmmm....dunno whether this is the right time to tell people about this...lots of people still dunno about this...
i will participate in PANTUN competition in Bulan Persada Melayu....
an activity that being held now...hv so much fun in the previous activities....thumbs up for the committee for handling this great event...
still hv more activities will be held next week....can't wait~also so nervous waiting for the day of the competition...

pantun....easily said than done...
been so 'blank-minded' while trying to generate the questions...huhuhuhu
pls...give me the 'ilham' while doing this...really need that + luck to make a good pantun...
so far...i feel so-so with the pantun that i made...so...so not best....for me...and may be for some people...

enough with that...
my stomach still hungry + hv pain to....
dunno why....hope not getting diarrhea...i really hate it when it attacked...

Hari Raya Qurban...Aidiladha this year is great...dunno whether it's much better than the last year...coz i'm not joining it last year....feel so lazy....but dunno why dis year i'm so hype to participate with the event....
my last year?may be one of the cause...
still...great job to Qurban Pesona Taqwa crew-members...for handling + making the effort to celebrate this day...

one more thing....
me n my camera...we cannot be separated lately....
i just love to carry it anyway...anytime...
hmmm....if not with my camera (Olympus FE-360), i will take the pics with my hp...hehehe...
and while holding it...i will feel ease + dun care about anything...just take the pictures....and...there~
the smiles...the situation...the memories...

ok...already feel sleepy...
that's all...
thanks for reading this blog...freely leave some comments yer~

XOXO - come on,come on~

Aidiladha...

Assalamualaikum n elo...

...Aidiladha...

yup..it's finally the day....the day to celebrate this festive day....
dunno why...i really missed my family more lately...
just now i read my sister's Facebook status: "ketupat & rendang are ready..yummy~"...almost like that la...
huhuhu...miss that food...all Hari Raya food..cooked by mama of course...love u mama~hope that i can also manage my future (as a wife) as great as mama....
and babah?a great man...he will be super busy tomorrow....b'coz like previous years...he will do the 'sembelihan', the qurban...dunno how many cows...all d best babah~

still can hear the 'takbir' outside...this will go on until morning....
love this moment....so calming...

owh...about the previous post...
i already predicted that we will arrive at Jatinangor in 2 hours of time...yup...it's true...with the trafic jam in Bandung & near Tol Ciluenyi....
finally...we reached the mosque before 8.00 p.m....

stayed there...eat...& listened to Datuk Shahidan's speech + ceramah by Dr Asri...
huhuhu...Alhamdulillah...i'm glad & greatful that i came to the event just now...
really like the ceramah....really update my knowledge...and making me realize that...how little my knowledge are compared to others....i hope that i manage to learn more in d future..

thanks Datuk Shahidan b'coz u r willing to spend this Aidiladha with us....
thanks also goes to Dr Asri....thanks for coming...thanks for the ceramah....

ok..that's all i think...
already feel so sleepy....
gotta go now...nite2 & muuuaaaahhhh~~~!!!

XOXO - Qurban Pesona Taqwa...^^

It's holiday...

Assalamualaikum n elo...

Yeay..it's holiday..but here,in Bandung when holiday it also mean 'u hv to stuck in traffic jam'...

Hehehe..
On d way back from Bandung to Jatinangor..went to Bandung Airport with another 5 ppl to 'jemput' n 'iring' Datuk Shahidan Kassim n Dr Asri to Jatinangor..
Yup..this year we,Malaysian students will celebrate Aidiladha with them..

Ok...
Already stuck in this car for more 30 mins now...
Already feel hungry...
Already...dunno...hehehe

Maybe...we will reach Jatinangor in 2 hours time.. T-T

XOXO - huhuhu..why it take so long to proses d form...eish!dun tell me they already lost it!!!

headache + sleepy...

Assalamualaikum n elo...

just coming home from Diwali Night at Grand Aquila Hotel....
such a nice..nope amazing event for me...lots of dances & music...making me wanna join them dancing...but..hv to hold myself from joining the Dance Floor...the last event for tonight...
why?it's not nice for a young lady..a Malay + Muslimah to behave like that...dancing 'wildly'...hahaha

already read the previous post?
till the end...Nad & me safe throughout the MC part..hahaha...
and...sorry Nad...i blow away the chance for u to get into the RTM camera...the camera-man saw me reading the sms from my junior...so...that's how he went away from u...sorry~T-T

headache + sleepy...
that's what i feel now..eat too much of mutton i think...it's been a long time...owh~how i miss it...
but it's true...the food was great..really worth Rp115.000 for the ticket~
and...i felt a little bit uneasy on my throat....please dun tell me i will get cough soon enough...already get over the flu yesterday...

and...the new case will start...and me as the leader for this week~!!!
no-no-no~!!!
i clearly not ready for being a leader for this week~!!!
pls-pls-pls~...
hope that this week will go on just fine...and i can manage it pretty wisely~

speaking of this week...
yup...it's almost time...the time to celebrate AIDILADHA a.k.a Hari Raya Qurban....
again...this year...i will celebrate it in Indonesia...with friends here + joining the activity that being held this week for Qurban....
can't wait for the event~!!!

owh...just now i was reading Faru's blog...and again...she tagged me...
topic - most memorable birthday...is it true on that?
sorry...i will do it later la sayang...can?can~?can~~?>///<

pics on Diwali Night will be uploaded soon...
too sleepy to do it now + i hv class in d morning...so...nitey nite guys~

XOXO - hehehe...i got something really good...one of my keepsake now~hahaha

Diwali Night...

Assalamualaikum n elo...

I'm attending Diwali nite..wow~for d 1st time i attend such event..an event that celebrate other race's festival...

The show is still go on..now is MC part..they r attacking d guests...hahaha
Quite scary actually..hope that Nad n me will stay 'safe'..

Hv lots of fun from d start until now..n great food too..

Ok..wanna watch d show again...hehe

XOXO - more dances..wanna try?

Yamapi Week...>///<

Assalamualaikum n elo...

yup...d Yamapi Week for me...
been watching Buzzer Beat for the whole weekdays (just finished the last episode yesterday~) & today...Loveless...newest song from this cute guy...

Buzzer Beat?
owh...i thought it was a drama that focus on sport & love story just like a toppings for it...
but...the focus is more to love story....a complex & mature love story...for me...
but still...love this series...i really hope that it shows more basketball part...not only the practice...more than that~!!!i want more from the sport~!!!
the ending?nice one >///<...but...Yamapi...u hv to watch it by urself if u wanna know about it...dun wanna spoil everything here...

the ad-board that catches my attention in this series...
"Love makes me strong"
love this phrase~^^

Synopsis (from DramaWiki):

Kamiya Naoki is a young player from a professional basketball team. But due to his relatively smaller size and his tendency to crack under pressure, he is unable to show his true skills on the court. Meanwhile, Shirakawa Riko is a cheerful, strong-spirited music college graduate aiming to become a professional violinist. One day, Riko finds Naoki's lost cell phone on a bus, and their meeting begins a friendship that eventually turns into love. However, Naoki was already considering marriage with his current girlfriend. And it doesn't help matters that Naoki's coach has fallen in love at first sight with Riko!

the casts for this J-dorama u can read it from the DramaWiki...dun wanna put everything here...

Loveless?
a song from Yamapi...
a pretty sad song for me...but love the music...love it~!!!
why am i saying this song is sad?try read the tranlation while listening to the song and u will understand it...
now...Loveless will become no.1 from Yamapi...Daite Senorita...sorry...u hv fall to no.2...hehehe

Loveless by Yamashita Tomohisa
(translation)
Somehow I already understand it
The reason why you looked down
It is because you can’t talk about ‘breaking up’
Our shadow which is on the road
becoming much more closer, seems overlapping
but our memories keeps fading away now

You must have come across a different love
I can’t find a word to keep you beside me

Saying goodbye
That it’s the end
Even if it’s a lie
Our hands become colder since we let go
We’ll become stranger

I’m sorry
Please don’t cry
Because I might hug you again
The memory that piled up
Before it turns to pain
Let us give our last smile and
Say goodbye

I’m going to be fine by myself
The first time I lied
Hoping that it will stop your tears

It is really important
I don’t want to say it actually
Even though it doesn’t really matter

I hope that you’ll find happiness the most
Even though I pretend to be strong
I’d like to tell you “Thank you very much”

Even if we have to say goodbye
Even if we have regrets
It is the proof that we were once together
It seems because of you
Our memories can’t be changed

I’ll forget about it
Let’s put it off our chest
The reasons which we carved together
Let’s move to the new future
Hurriedly, behind your back
with the last smile, I’ll say Goodbye

Saying goodbye
That it’s the end
Even if it’s a lie
Our hands become colder since we let go
We’ll become stranger

I’m sorry
Please don’t cry
Because I might hug you again
The memory that piled up
Before it turns to pain
Let us give our last smile and
Say goodbye

*lyric is taken from saera_asakura LJ...tq so much~^^

so...that's all for this post...
now i know why Alia (my cousin) & Nad (my housemate + my best buddy) so 'in love' with this cute guy...Yamapi certainly can make young girls become tachycardia + tachypnea...hahaha
as for me...Akanishi Jin still no.1~hahaha~

XOXO - if i was Riko...i totally will fall in love with Coach Kawasaki, not Kamiya...hahaha

d topic again~

Assalamualaikum n elo...

it's raining again today...but not as heavy as 2 days ago...so...not too wet today~
except for my lab-coat...fell down on the street so...a little bit dirty...hv to clean it up later...

d topic?what kind of topic?
aaaaa....love...yes...being discuss again today but i'm not into the discussion...so dunno what's d details...

but...dunno what triggered the issue...about couple...
is it about being d one & only for him?yeah~i totally into that by saying that phrase..hahaha...
Hanim said, "i think Noi will be d only one for him...b'coz Noi looks like the person will straight into marriage,not so into 'coupling' thing..." & Nad agreed with this...
as for me...i think that i can also feel the same...may be i'm into love after marriage...like mama & babah...that happily together...i can see that they r really happy together...
"Nad also looks like that..."
"Yup..if i also like that guy...if not...there's no use...but i know that my mom knows d best for me..."
"is there anyone out there going out as a couple eventhough they dun like each other?"
"there are...and most probably not happy with it..."
d topic come to end when our tutor came in...

"couple?how many time?"

"Love is... giving someone the power to break your heart, but trusting her/him not to.."

hmmm....is love always like this?
can be so sweet at one time...
but when being hurt...it can make life turns up-side down...

"he's not that into you..."

a movie that i watched yesterday with Huda...a good movie...showed how 'sweet' & 'cruel' a man can be sometimes....
"if he said that he will call u but in d end he didn't..that's showed he not interested in u..."
owh...this phrase really teaches woman don't be too "perasaben" ok...
what i also get from this movie?hmm...just stay faithful to ur partner...that's important...

when talking about this topic...i really dunno how to evaluate more..
hehehe...truly am...no experience with this matter...
just learning trough watching other people...watching how love can bring so many emotion - happy,sad,frustrated,enjoy,boring,grateful,hatred...

ok...
that's all...

XOXO - please...why is this topic again?20s?it's complicated....

runny nose & ...

Assalamualaikum n elo...

staying up late again~~
hehehe....study a little bit for my presentation in tutorial session...
and...feel a little bit hyper...may be b'coz of 2 cups coffee that i took...

and...hv runny nose now..huhuhu...an allergic reaction actually...
i tried to find d letters to fill in MARA's form...and the envelope full with dust all over it~!!
quite uneasy now...hving this runny nose with reading...not to forget the sneezing (still hv it now) + ichy nose + irritating eyes (already ok)...

what my LIs to be presented?acute cholangitis - an inflammation of bile duct...
this week case theme is "hepatopancreatic disease"...will end in next tutorial session...
and...the statement in the latest page of this case that made my tutorial-mates go "lol":

"The surgeon tells Mrs. Fetty that she suffered from Cholangitis with Acute Pancreatitis due to Choledocholithiasis owning to Cholelithiasis with Cholecystitis."

so..a tongue twister for us...hehehe

currently reading about endoscopy from Internal Medicine...full with pics of 'sick' guts...huhuhu...at first make me felt sick but gradually...it's fun staring at the pics...
OMG~what's happening to me~?!!

the system..gastrointestinal system....a little bit 'heavy' for me..but..i think i will like it + handle it pretty well...
just wish me all the best~

XOXO - still sneezing...my nose + throat feel uneasy now~T-T

why~?

Assalamualaikum n elo...

huhuhu...
my hp...something wrong with it....i dunno what happen but..suddenly...most of the songs in my hp gone~!deleted~!!!
huhuhu...
the etiology?unknown...
why?why~?why~~~?dun tell me that my hp being infected by virus~!!!

i took 2 songs from my friends hp just now...via Bluetooth...
but...during that time...my hp was ok...still functioning well + still hv the songs....
but...but...it was also fine during Maghrib...the sms alert still 'Never Again' intro (by KAT-TUN)...
at about 11 pm...suddenly the alert changed...& when i checked...the song is not there...all KAT-TUN's songs gone~!!!L'Arc~en~Ciel too~!!!
nooooooooo~~!!!

how many songs disappear?
more than 400 may be....since my hp hv 8GB internal memory...
now..the process transferring back the sonngs into the hp...
if the same thing happen again...

XOXO - no~no~drama~~~

let the rain fall down~

Assalamualaikum n elo...

Let the rain fall down
And wake my dreams
Let it wash away my sanity
'Cause I wanna feel the thunder
I wanna scream
Let the rain fall down
I'm coming clean

d chorus part from d song Come Clean by Hilary Duff...
it's been raining since morning....non-stop until my class for d day end...
coming back home all-wet eventhough i hv umbrella...
still freezing here~

"Let the rain fall down"
i wish that i can always say that with pleasant + happy tone...
it's not that i hate rain...i actually love rainy day...can sleep peacefully in this cool weather~hahaha...
but...rainy day can turn my day up-side-down...i sometimes can become so moody...
rainy day...making me feel uneasy...with wet clothes coming back from class...with wet floor in my room because of the leakage of d shilling...the coolness that sometimes i cannot adapt with...
but still....i'm grateful that...it's raining~

rain...
one of d gift from ALLAH...
appreciate it...don't ever blame it...
if the rain brings disaster...it just one of the test from ALLAH...
it's a gift....
say Alhamdulillah...as simple as that we already show how grateful we are...

rain may makes d sky dark & gloomy...
but once it's stopped...we can see beautiful sky again...sometimes rainbow if we lucky enough....
hehehehe....
XOXO - hot coffee + cookies =

opss~i did it again...

Assalamualaikum n elo...

another 'spending-money-on-unnecessary' day...
another 'too-much-of-sleeping' day...
another 'stay-up-after-midnight' again...
yeah..i did it again...opss~>///<

spending money...
i'm really bad at managing my finance...not as good as while i'm in highschool...
when i think back about that time...i will impress with myself (not being narciss or anything here)...the way i managed my money...
i ate during recess time,no diet-diet things...
i took bus to school...
i had my 'otaku' side too back then...
but still...it's not the same as now...why~?
owh well....i spent my money on DVDs again...Buzzer Beat (Yamapi~^^) & Otomen (Seto~^^)...just finished the 4th episode of Buzzer Beat...wanna continued but i hv to finish my LIs & lab homework 1st...

sleep...
yeah...cannot resist this...
sleep for almost 4 hours in the evening....waahaaa~what's that?
to 'compensate' my sleeping schedule?or just too tired with today's class?
but...that 4-hour-nap (can we called that NAP?) make me...a little bit dizzy...hahaha~

stay-up...
the consequence of coffee that i took just now...
dun want to go to bed now...i will end up just laying down on the bed,turn right & left....
so..just stay-up a little while until i'm really sure that "i'm ready to sleep~!!!"
my LIs?managed to finished it a while ago~hahaha~
my lab homework?already done it..need further reading...i'm not so into tomorrow's topic...Stool Examination...huhuhuhu....facing the stool are we?

XOXO - opss~i did it again...i dream about something that i cannot remember when i wake up...

what a day...>>'''

Assalamualaikum n elo...

another silent night tonight...with books on my left & Saphira behind me...accompanying me staying up...planning to do my LIs - Acute Cholangitis...

not really so into the clinical skills lab today...because of the delayed time to start the session...been waiting for more that 30 mins,without anything...
today's session...we being seperated from KPBI 06...we had different skill to be learned today - they learning on acute abdominal & us about breastfeeding...
yup..breastfeeding counseling...teaching the mother to gv a proper & correct way of nursing the baby + informed the advantages of breastfeeding....
for me...an interesting skill...testing our communication skill...hehehe...eventhough a little bit 'geram' b'coz the class started quite late - almost 10.00 a.m.

and..like always..today we got new case~yeay~!!!
our next patient that 'come' to us this week - Mrs. Fetty with chief complaint of right upper abdominal pain + nausea + vomit + fever + yellowish eyes....
i'm the board secretary for this case...and not in d good mood actually today...easily pissed off + sensitive...huhuhuhu...but overall...we doing fine today...
my LI - acute cholangitis = inflammation of bile duct --> characterized by fever + jaundice + abdominal pain...

my..my..felt really awkward actually...
with lots of thing hv to be managed...& suddenly being appointed as...hehehehe...dun wanna tell u what it is...just wait in the next, next, next (may be~) post....will tell u about this thing...let it be as a secret for now...

another thing~i ate a lot today..f.ayam penyet (is it correct?d spelling?) for breaking the fast & fried kuew tiaw after PKPMI-CB's meeting....to 'compensate' (?) fasting today...hehehe...

what am i?just eat & eat...without doing any exercise (not joining Huda & Nad in aerobic class)...am i not scare about gaining weight?about increasing size? -aaa...nope...?-
eventhough not joining them...can i consider my dance-'sesuka hati' session at home as an exercise?hehehe...just love doing it...alone~>///< hope that i can maintain d way i am now...please be like this...maintain this shape & body weight... ok...so many unnecessary things today... continue my LIs...prepare for tomorrow's lectures at 8 a.m....
till d next post~

XOXO - i miss tiramisu & blueberry cheesecakes...T-T

too much sleeping = cannot sleep >>'''

Assalamualaikum n elo...

cannot sleep..that's why i'm still awake eventhough it's already 3.30 a.m WIB (waktu Indonesia Barat)...why?already had too much of sleeping today...woke up at 12 noon,then fell asleep after Maghrib..woke up again at almost 11.00 p.m...

so many things to be done...especially lab assignments + revision for clinical skills lab...don't wanna face the same feeling as last week...
what kind of feeling?hahaha..."anak emas" that in reality..."anak tiri"...not being prejudice here..but that's the truth...eventhough not all people will thought like that but i'm sure...we are pretty sure there will be people who thought like that...

enough of that...
hehehe...that's me..easily change my emotion...my feeling...personality?dunno...friends are the one who gonna judge that...i feel completely the same...but dunno what other's thought...

finally...finished doing my crucial task - updating PKPMI-CB blog~~huhuhu...sorry for taking such a long time (almost 2 weeks since the last post) to update it...please do forgive me...
another thing...i will take all the blame....what's that?only certain person know it...
and...finally too~i managed to upload all the short films in MAISEN 2009...yeay~!!!taking such along time..with this ****** connection....please do view & comments PKPMI-CB YouTube...

ok...better continue my unfinished business...study~lol~~

XOXO - what am i doing~?!!!

boring day turns to...

Assalamualaikum n elo...

what a day....a really boring,frustrated day for me...
already planned what to do 1st & next one...
but...there's no electricity the whole day...it's back during Maghrib...huhuhu

what am i doing this whole day?
do my LIs...about cirrhosis..but cannot finished it since my laptop's battery = 0...
then..do some more reading....bla..bla..bla...then fell asleep...woke up again...still no electricity...read a little bit more...then...fell asleep again...hehehe

continued doing my LIs after Maghrib...and finished it on 9 o'clock...yeay~finally~~

my boring day turns to busy again...hv to finish my LIs tonight...
aaa~~still not memorizing the clinical skills for tomorrow's evaluation~!!!

since my LIs already done...can i sleep now?hehehe....

XOXO - sleep...sleep...sleep...ZZZZZzzzzz

where's d electricity~?!!

Assalamualaikum n elo...

I'm back..publishing this post from my hp..

So boring + i'm hving headache now..already more than 4 hours without electric..
dunno what to do..already read my LI many times..cannot switch on d laptop..d battery already 0..

What to do?

XOXO - Saphira..come back to me..T-T

more random...

Assalamualaikum n elo...

before i go further....wanna wish something~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to DIYANA a.k.a PIPER~may ALLAH bless u,be happy,enjoy ur life & stay cute forever~

.: me & piper & faru (at d back) :.

another wish...hehehe...

all d best to TWP08 for tomorrow's OSCE....
just stay calm & u can do it~

why today's post's tittle = "more random..."?
hahaha...again...wanna put some quotes in this post...quotes about life...

When life gives you a hundred reasons to cry, show life that you have a thousand reasons to smile...

"I always knew looking back on the tears would make me laugh, but I never knew looking back on the laughs would make me cry..."

"When one door closes, another opens; but we often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door that we do not see the one that has opened for us..."

ok...this one is quite long...but i like it~

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let us down, probably will. You'll have your heart broken and you'll break others' hearts. You'll fight with your best friend or maybe even fall in love with them, and you'll cry because time is flying by. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, forgive freely, and love like you've never been hurt. Life comes with no guarantees, no time outs, no second chances. you just have to live life to the fullest, tell someone what they mean to you and tell someone off, speak out, dance in the pouring rain, hold someone's hand, comfort a friend, fall asleep watching the sun come up, stay up late, be a flirt, and smile until your face hurts. Don't be afraid to take chances or fall in love and most of all, live in the moment because every second you spend angry or upset is a second of happiness you can never get back..

ok...that's all...
sorry...another "lalala~" post...hehehe

XOXO - hv work to do..but i already sleepy...

please go away...T-T

Assalamualaikum n elo...

not my day today...not feeling well + mood swing...can u imagine that....
but..thank God i just effect myself...not people around me (except for Nad...she had to hear all my complaint in the class)...just keep it to myself & control myself from 'kaboom~!!!'

after take my evening nap...felt a little bit better...eventho still hv the headache...
Alhamdulillah...i managed to finish my LIs...just hv to do a bit more on my lab assignment...huhuhu...please disappear~please be gone~!!!

ok...
today's lectures...only like the BHP lecture...
1st two lectures - about acute abdominal & cirrhosis...good topics but if the lecturers just read slides...but still...tq for the knowledge that they taught us...just hv to read by myself again...
CRP - blur2...hahaha...evidence based medicine...the topic that we just learned today but already being asked in last exam...again...hv to read by myself again...already hv the points that what to study...the rest is up to me...^^
BHP - lecture + discussion...the lecture made the session not to boring...most of the session is discussion...he gv us a topic & we discussed together...(some of my friends said he's cute..but not for me...but Huda said he looked like an actor from old movie...50s maybe...hahaha)

still not fully recover...maybe hv to rest a little bit more...
wanna go to bed now...hope that when i woke up this pain will completely gone...

XOXO - get well soon...i miss my happy-go-lucky & easy-going self...

Close to u...

Assalamualaikum n elo...

Having u close to me making me happy...

Saphira!!
She's home tonight..but most of d time she just eat n sleep..a mom-to-be..what do u expect..n she quite annoying sometimes but still cute n i luv her..

Hope that her little ones will be as cute as her..

XOXO - not in d good mood + not feeling well

miss that time~

Assalamualaikum n elo...

why am i so into busy life?
why am i love to put myself into lots of work?

actually...i really miss my busy time during MAKSIMAL...miss that kind of pressure~
hehehe...
miss the fun-time..yup~
eventhough at that time...the final exam was just around the corner...about 4 more days to go...but i really enjoy myself doing my work...

.: the 2009 batch...our cute juniors~^^ :.

then..MAISEN...
few more days before SOCA & OSCE....
a thing to do to reduce the exam tension...and it really help~

after exam...Be In-Pact editting~hahaha
i edited it for on whole day...before going back to Malaysia...
quite satisfied with this new edition...how about others?hope that u r satisfied with the contents...if not..kindly put ur comments & suggestions at PKPMI-CB Blog ok~^^

now...i'm back to not-so-busy life...
still hv works to do...still hv the tasks to be done...as a student & a committee...
but..not as busy as the time before...
i really miss those time~

XOXO - dun ask me why i'm so into this stuff...>>'''

finally...n i feel sleepy now~

Assalamualaikum n elo...

yeay~
just wanna report that..i manage to fold another 100 pamphlets just now~!!!
finally...after having this backache + pain on my fingers...

.: the pamphlets that already done :.

last minute work....so sorry coz i dun hv the time to find colored papers...so photocopied on plain,white A4 paper...
hope that this last minute work will satisfied d committee members that in charge in SYMPHONESIA...

thanks to Nad coz helping me just now...i really appreciate ur concern on me...love u~

ok..since my work for today is done...i'm going to sleep now~
nite2...and sweet dream...

XOXO - ok...tomorrow...another dunno-what-to-do mode?

'origami' (?) time~

Assalamualaikum n elo...

yeay~let's hv some origami session tonight...

take 1 paper...fold it into 3 part...to the right..then to the left...
make sure that all the parts are about the same size~
ok~1 pamphlet is done...repeat the steps with another paper...

huhuhu...been repeat the steps for many times...with Nad help a bit of them...
finally..the 1st pamphlet is done...100 of them...
still hv another pamphlet to be done...another 100 to fold~~

in the end...my dunno-what-to-do mode turned to busy mode...hehehe
i like~
what pamphlet? 2 pamphlets for tomorrow...SYMPHONESIA a.k.a Symphony of ASEAN....
received this task in the afternoon trough SMS...while i tried to kill some time with organizing my notes....
2 pamphlets...
1 is on PKPMI-CB...just hv to edit a little bit since i already done it before...
another 1 is on Malaysia...a pamphlet to promote Malaysia cultural & herritage..promote them to the fellow ASEAN..hua~such a big task to do...
the truth is..i was so nervous while doing this pamphlet...why?it's related to culture...the topic that once brought some issues...worried that the info in the pamphlet will cause misunderstanding...
but..nothing to be worried about...the info (on handicraft,traditional dance & music, games) i took from Tourism Malaysia website....so..hope that the info in that pamphlet is enough and well-understood...

all my plan today hv to be canceled since i got this task...
eventhough i didn't get this task..i think that i not gonna do all the plans stated in the previous post...

ok..back to work~

XOXO - fold...fold..fold...urgghhh~i'm feeling sick~

i-dunno-what-to-do mode...

Assalamualaikum n elo...

what to do today~?
i just woke up at 8.30 a.m...hv a really long sleep but it seems that 8 hours of sleep still not enough for me...why~?
woke up with lots of thinking....what to do today?
playing around...
surfing the internet...
study (wow~)...
go out for a while....
which one?!

now...with the book opened besides me...my eyes on the laptop..updating this blog,uploading some pics into PKPMI-CB Photobucket album...playing Mafia Wars on Facebook...
when to start ur study young lady~?

going out...may be i'll do that after this...may be going out alone...may be with Huda...will ask her later...Nadya?out accompanying Aimi to her friend's wedding....
my...my...what to do...

my most crucial task - updating PKPMI-CB Blog...
when to do it~sorry~!!!

i-dunno-what-to-do mode still on...

XOXO - hey...a spidey in front of me...hello there little one~^^

the internet ****

Assalamualaikum n elo...

huhuhu...
the internet killing me softly just now...it really making me wanna cry...
hv important e-mail to send...really urgent one...but the attachment process taking to much of the time...huhuhu...

i was browsing tru the internet when i got this sms from a senior...asking me to send some pics of last night dinner...a dinner with Datuk Shakar Shamsudin & the students that live in Pahang...
ok..i accepted the job..and started picking the pics to be send to Datuk Dr Junaidy...

after picking the pics...i click on the button 'attach file'...
and...it took a really long time...just for 5 file of pics with the size of less then 3MB all together...took more than 1 hour~!!!
OMG~why is the internet like this tonight when i hv to do important task~?

so sorry for the delay...i really dun expect this to happen just now...uploading 5 pics for one hour...man...that's really ****~

nervous....disappointed....wanna cry...that's my feeling while waiting the files to finish attached....
relieved...nervous (still)...wanna cry (for joy & uneasy feeling too)...that's how i feel after sending the e-mail (hv to explain why i took such a long time to send those pics)...worried~yeah..that's the right word~

.: one of the pics that i tried to upload & send :.

but when Datuk Dr Junaidy replied the e-mail with "Thanks"...i feel a lot better than before..eventhough still feeling worried...so sorry~!!!
to Abang Fendi...so sorry for the unexpected problem that occur...sorry yer~

XOXO - why it has to be tonight?why~?!!!

heart to heart...?

Assalamualaikum n elo...

headache + sleepy....huhuhu....eventhough already sleep for 2 hours after class but it seem that that nap was not enough...may be still need a little bit more sleeping....

woke up really late this morning...10 min before the class start...huhuhu~
that's was so...late~!!!i managed to arrive 10 minutes after the class started...huhuhu...thank God that today's only evaluation for skills lab...if it's lecture...i gonna cry~T-T

so..today...had done lots of talking with friends today...
about live...about man-woman relationship..about marriage...about love...
our fav topics when we,girls gathered...dunno why they like this kind of topic...as for me..just follow the flow..share what i get from looking at other people's experience...

few days ago..we had this kind of talk too but not as deep as this one...
"Cik,hv u ever fight with him?"
"of course~" Cik answered while smiling...i can see how happy she is with him...
"fighting...arguing...it's common in a relationship...it feels like the relationship not complete without arguing...if no arguing then it's showed that u dunno ur partner & same as ur partner..." another friend added...
"if Noi in a relationship...there may be no arguing at all..."
"why?" i asked...
"coz u look so kind...dunno why but that's what i can feel..."
hahaha...that kind of image...dunno..am i really hv that 'kind' image?who is that 'lucky' guy for me?hehehe~

as for today...most of the topics are about love relationship...and who will get marry 1st in our batch...hahaha~
who?may be not me...
hehehe...to friends that in that room this afternoon...what i told u is the truth...i prefer love after marriage~if the guy that i'm going to marry is chosen by my parents,i will accept him~>///<

may be one of the cause that i still dun wanna get involve in love...because i already seen how love can change people...how pain when it's not going right...

ok..enough of that..i'm really staving now...going to eat something~
c u in the next post~

XOXO - heart-to-heart...i'm not ready yet~

ehem...hihihi

Assalamualaikum n elo...

ok..since today is 5th of November...i really hv something to wish here...
some wishes for someone out there~

Otanjobi Omedetou Tanaka Koki~
hope that u will always be happy & always success in everything u done~
the 2nd 'T' in KAT-TUN~love u~!!!

XOXO - hehehe~>///<

lab oh~ lab again...

Assalamualaikum n elo...

just another pieces of me...

just finished doing the outline for tomorrow's event...hv dinner with some VIP tomorrow..so i'm helping my friends planning the events for tomorrow night...
final editing is tomorrow..hope that i manage to get it done...

today...another busy day for me...with the lab..my lab assignment not 100% done...didn't cover the embroyology part...huhuhu...
the doctors seem a little bit not satisfied with us..coz many of us not fully understand about the embyology,anatomy,&histology of the esophagus & stomach...

they asked us when did we get the manual...we answered last night...they asked how did we get the manual if last night...we answered the admin people send to one of my friends house...they smirked & said, "Oh,special delivery service..."
what was that?they kept saying the same thing...making some of us pissed off...

"dun u say that u r in Twinning Program,so u cannot do this & that...we expected that u can do the tasks that we give to you..."
what's that?the statement is just like they want to compare us with the regular program...
not being prejudice here...but this is the truth...we always being compared with the regular program by certain lecturers...
"if in regular program..there's no this & that...", "in the regular program, they r not like u", "there's no such thing in the regular program.."
if comparing in good ways...we still can accept it...but...T-T
we never complaint that we cannot do this & that because we're in Twinning Program...never complaint...we just do & follow the tasks,the assignments,the regulations that being set on us...never said to any lecturers that we're in Twinning Program, so we're different from regular class...we are the same...studying under Faculty of Medicine in UNPAD...so why~?

the lecturers?no...i dun hate them...i cannot hate the..dunno why...eventhough i pissed off or angry with some of them but i never really able to hate someone...never...
"thank you"..that's only i can say to them...

is not like i hate or regret that i choose to study medicine here...
to tell u the truth...i dunno what's my true feeling about studying here...
but i never regret that i choose field of medicine + meet the people i know now...
i'm really grateful i meet these people...my friends in Twinning Program,the juniors & the seniors in the same faculty,friends from other faculties (Dentistry & Pharmacy), & Indonesian friends...

Alhamdulillah...
i'm already in the 6th semester now (already repeat this over & over again~^^)...
have to be patience + focus on my study...

still hv LIs to be done...
still hv something to think...huhuhu...help me~i dunno what to do for this SYMPHONESIA~~~to join or not...hmmm...what to do?

ok...stop now before i end up sitting in front of this laptop, surfing the net without doing any work~~
till the next post~*peace*

XOXO - which one is more difficult?to hate or to love somebody?

lab oh~ lab...

Assalamualaikum n elo...

almost 2.00 a.m here = 3.00 a.m in Malaysia but i'm still awake...
sleepy?yup..a little bit...just finished (although not fully) labeling the figures for lab assignment...just got it after Isyak from Faizul (thanks~)...and the lab is tomorrow...is that appropriate?giving the lab manual that has assignment to be done at the time like that?really late?we still have learning issues to be done for tomorrow's tutorial also...so when is the time to do the assignment?

it's really quiet tonight...except for the music from my laptop...Nadya & Huda already gone to bed...just me alone with Saphira in this 'living room'...

busy day for me today..since Be In-Pact release today..hv to distribute them to every batch in every faculty..for all the members for PKPMI-CB...
as the editor (ehem..hehehe)...tq to Team BIP for doing a good job providing the contents for this issue...i really appreciate ur hard work + proud having u all as the members of Biro Informasi & Penerangan PKPMI-CB..love u guys so much~
and as editor too..i make mistake in editing...sorry~~...
also make mistake in calculation to print out the Be In-Pact...sorry again~~~...i miscalculate the no. of members here in Jatinagor...so...more Be In-Pact being print out this time...sorry~~~really sorry~~~

dunno what else to talk about...
that's all i think...
just a so-so day for me but i still happy coz..it's my life~i still able to meet people + doing things that i love~Alhamdulillah...

so...love ur life...enjoy it...never overdo it...

XOXO - love yourself 1st before love someone else...if u dunno how to love yourself...how u gonna love somebody else & make him/her happy?

am i...

Assalamualaikum n elo...

just pieces of my mind..wondering about my life...been living happily for 21 years...will enter 22 in a few months later...am i really ready to enter this adult world?

2 years already passed...i already in 3rd year...studying medicine...will enter new semester & new system tomorrow...am i ready to take on the new challenge?

i already told this...on the 1st day of my holiday at home...mama asked me about boyfriend...she asking me again the same question on Friday...mama...am i really fit to that world?having boyfriend?mama...do u thing i'm ready for that?am i really ready to hv other person's heart to take care of...besides my family & close friends?am i really ready to spend my time with the other person?am i really ready to divide my time between friends & him?am i ready for that?

i hv met lots of people...hv my best buddies here...4 of them...i love them really much...appreciate them..glad n grateful that i met & know them...never regret that i met u guys...really hope that we will be together always...i just wanna tell u guys that..u hv been great friends for me...giving me all the happiest moments in my life...i'm really sorry if i ever treat u guys badly...great friend...am i worth for that title?

we will enter UKM medicine faculty next year...will start our 1st department task...will start our 1st ward-round...will meet actual patients with actual sickness & problem...will face the so-called strict lecturers + pack schedule....am i fit to this?it's not i'm regretting that i'm taking medicine...it's not i'm already cannot stand in this field...it's just that...am i ready for this?can i really be a good doctor in the future...i'm now excited + afraid with my future...i really hope that i can do it..can manage it...

love my life...love the people around me...peace v(^_^)v

XOXO - am i...a perfect one for u?

i'm back~

Assalamualaikum n elo...

i'm back...i'm here now..in Jatinangor...
huhuhu...my one week holiday will end today...and the new semester will start tomorrow...
happy being here again?hmm..half-half..still wanna spend more time at home with my family but at the same time..i'm happy that i can meet my friends again...

ok..since the class will start again tomorrow...we still hv one problem...
WHERE IS THE SCHEDULE?
new semester will start tomorrow but...where is it?
already asked the leader about this...he already contact the admin for this matter...
the answer?they also dunno...what the heck?we having holiday for a week...u hv a week to get the schedule ready but still...dunno?
so..what r we going to do?dunno what we will get tomorrow...skills lab?tutorial?lectures?lab?
still in holiday?yup..we definitely love holidays~hahaha

haven't change a bit...eventhough this will be our last semester here...
still unorganized...still the same as always...where are the coordinators?where are them?

enough of that...
so..my busy days will start again...with the studies...biro's duties....with friends...hehehe...
hope that this semester is a great one for me & my friends...a semester that brings more joys in my life...

to all friends that having examination...i wish u a very best of luck...YOU CAN DO IT~!!!

XOXO - a never ending story...