Sunday, January 23, 2011

not alone...

بِسْمِ اللَّهِ الرَّحْمَنِ الرَّحِيم

Assalamualaikum n elo...

blogger-emoticon.blogspot.com fan-girl time~

hahaaa~
i just watched the MV Not Alone by Park Jung Min (SS501) and serously,i loving it~^^

i was attracted with his voice [same story like B2ST Dong Woon]

and i love his unique face too~
he's cute & charismatic & handsome face blogger-emoticon.blogspot.com

i'd been waiting for his solo to release since the 1st news was published (i don't remember when...)
and the result?
it's worth to wait since this song & MV is great~~

try to enjoy this MV~
try to love Jung Min~




NOT ALONE
Park Jung Min

지쳐가는 니 눈빛이 자꾸 나를 놓으려고 해
[jichyeoneun ni nunbichi jaggu nareul noheuryeogo hae]
숨 이차 니 모습을 볼 수도 붙잡을 수 없어
[sum icha ni moseubeul bol sudo butjabeul su eobseo]

지쳐 stop stop stop 이젠 더
[jichyeo stop stop stop ijen deo]
모든걸 step step step 벗어나
[modeungeol step step step beoseona]
돌이킬 수 가 없다고 끝이라며 또 울지만
[dorikil su ga eobtdago ggeutiramyeo ddo uljiman]

so I can believe I’m not alone
이젠 not alone 더는 슬프지 않게
[i jen not alone deoneun seulpeuji anhge]
and I can feel it I’m not alone
절대 not alone 다신 힘들지 않게
[jeoldae not alone dashin himdeulji anhge]

이젠 다신 down down down down no! no! no! no!
[i jen dashin down down down down no! no! no! no!]
down down down down no! no! no! no!
시간이 더 흘러도 I’m not alone
[shigani deo heulreodo I'm not alone]
너 하나 때문에 I can believe
[neo hana ddaemune I can believe]

갈수록 니 기억이 날 붙잡아
[galsurok ni gieogi nal butjaba]
싫어도 여전히 그 흔적에 살아
[shirheodo yeojeonhi geu heunjeoge sara]

점점 stop stop stop 시간이
[jeom jeom stop stop stop shigani]
다시 또 step step step 벗어나
[dashi ddo step step step beoseona]
돌아갈 수 가 없다고 끝이라며 또 울지만
[doragal su ga eobtdago ggeutiramyeo ddo wuljiman]

so I can believe I’m not alone
이젠 not alone 더는 슬프지 않게
[ijen not alone deoneun seulpeuji anhge]
and I can feel it I’m not alone
절대 not alone 다신 힘들지 않게
[jeoldae not alone dashin himdeulji anhge]

이젠 다신 down down down down no! no! no! no!
[i jen dashin down down down down no! no! no! no!]
down down down down no! no! no! no!
시간이 더 흘러도 I’m not alone
[shigani deo heulreodo I'm not alone]
너 하나 때문에 I can believe
[neo hana ddaemune I can believe]

숨을 쉴 수 조차 없는 어두운 이 밤도
[sumeul swil su jocha eobtneun eoduwun i bamdo]
다시는 두렵지 않아 너 때문에
[dashineun duryeobji anha neo ddaemune]

so I can believe I’m not alone
이젠 not alone 다시 돌릴 수 있게
[ijen not alone dashi dol ril su ittge]
and I can feel it I’m not alone
절대 not alone 다신 힘들지 않게
[jeoldae not alone dashin himdeulji anhge]

이젠 다신 down down down down no! no! no! no!
[i jen dashin down down down down no! no! no! no!]
down down down down no! no! no! no!
모든게 무너져도 I’m not alone
[modeunge muneojyeodo I'm not alone]
너 하나로 충분해 I’m not alone
[neo hanaro chungbunhae I'm not alone]
you’re not alone


[translation]

That tired expression in your eyes always remains in me
Other than your breathe, I can’t see your image and can’t make you stay too

More exhausted now stop stop stop
Get out of everything step step step
There is no return even though ending...it will cause tears

so I can believe I’m not alone
Not alone now, not sad anymore
and I can feel it I’m not alone
Definitely not alone, never be exhausted again

Now again down down down down no! no! no! no!
down down down down no! no! no! no!
Even if more time passes by, I’m not alone
Because of you alone I can believe.

As time passes by, memories of you still remain...
Still living within those traces, even if I hate it

Time gradually stop stop stop
Get out again step step step
There is no return even though ending...it will cause tears

so I can believe I’m not alone
Not alone now, not sad anymore
and I can feel it I’m not alone
Definitely not alone, never be exhausted again

Now never again down down down down no! no! no! no!
down down down down no! no! no! no!
Even if more time passes by, I’m not alone
Because of you alone I can believe.

Cannot even breathe in this gloomy night
Again I’m not afraid because of you

so I can believe I’m not alone
Not alone now, able to return again
and I can feel it I’m not alone
Definitely not alone, never be exhausted again

Now never again down down down down no! no! no! no!
down down down down no! no! no! no!
Even if everything collapses I’m not alone
Just you alone is enough I’m not alone.
You’re not alone

credits to - http://whitecupidwithwings.blogspot.com

XOXO - i miss SS501

i'm tired...

بِسْمِ اللَّهِ الرَّحْمَنِ الرَّحِيم

Assalamualaikum n elo...

please...
don't make me handle another tasks...
i'm already tired with all the responsibilities given to me...
don't burden me with more work...

thanks for the acknowledgment and trust that you all give to me...
but...it's enough...
there are other people who can handle it better than me...you can handle the tasks better than me...

i just want to concentrate on this 2 current tasks...
eventhough it's only 2...but it's so stressful if you give me another task...

just leave me for awhile...
i just wanna rest after this latest program done...
it's 'absorbing' all my life-force...my 'mana' (like in games)...

please...

XOXO - i really need time for myself & study...

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

cannot sleep...

بِسْمِ اللَّهِ الرَّحْمَنِ الرَّحِيم

Assalamualaikum n elo...

nyaa~nyaan~blogger-emoticon.blogspot.comnyaaannn?!!

yeah...i'm making random sounds~
and...i cannot sleep
i dunno why...

i think that thing/time come again~yup the time when i'm too stress/burden by all the works....

i'm ok with my study...
but...i'm always worry about my performance in students' organization & committee for a program...
and i'm not in the mood to do any revision blogger-emoticon.blogspot.com

i will just spend my time uploading the pictures to my Facebook album...feel free to view~^^

and...i will try to find the mood to post about:
  • my day-out with my GFs
  • KTDI's annual dinner
  • the shots during Sukan KTDI
ok...
i want to continue what i did just now - uploading pics...
will try to sleep after this~

nite2 & sweet dream guys...

XOXO - class at 10 a.m blogger-emoticon.blogspot.com

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

Internal Medicine : my feeling after SHORT CASE exam...

بِسْمِ اللَّهِ الرَّحْمَنِ الرَّحِيم

Assalamualaikum n elo...

SHORT CASE EXAM...
yeah~i'm done with that~and i'm happy with it!!!

it's not like i can do it perfectly but i'm satisfied with my performance...

i dunno whether the examiners were satisfied or not...
but i know that i already done my best & i was perfectly happy + relieved soon after i'd done this exam..
blogger-emoticon.blogspot.comnothing can beat this feeling of 'awesomeness'~

the cases that i get:
  • Station A - Cardiovascular System examination
  • Station B - Abdominal Examination
the difficult things in this exam were the ability to find the positive findings & diagnosis based on the findings...
if you dunno what you found - blogger-emoticon.blogspot.com

Alhamdulillah...
i managed to do this short case...eventhough i have certain regrets...
but still, i felt much better than the Long Case~
it feels good~blogger-emoticon.blogspot.com

now...i just have to concentrate on this current posting & the final examination...
i really hope that...once again i can taste the sweetness of passing these two posting in this 2nd semester...
insya-Allah~amiinn~

short case?!!long case?!!
what're they???
LONG CASE - from history taking + physical examination + presentation + discussion (diagnosis, differential diagnosis, investigation,management & other related topics)
SHORT CASE -just do the physical examination instructed + presentation of the findings + diagnosis based on the findings + differential diagnosis)

ok~
i just wanna enjoy this last posting since this is the posting that i waited~
JKM a.k.a Medical & Society posting~^^
more new + great things to be learned in this posting~

wish me all the best minna~blogger-emoticon.blogspot.com

XOXO - i managed to act + memorized almost all the steps~blogger-emoticon.blogspot.com

Monday, January 17, 2011

Internal Medicine : my feeling after LONG CASE assessment...

بِسْمِ اللَّهِ الرَّحْمَنِ الرَّحِيم

Assalamualaikum n elo...

for more than two weeks...i didn't post anything in this blog...
yeah...i'm sorry...'busy' with my life as student...
hahahaa~

blogger-emoticon.blogspot.combusy...am i???

nope...not that busy...it's just i don't know what to post in this blog...
trying to figure out what kind of story that appropriate to share with you~

for these 2 weeks...i'm being so...shut-in?is that really a word that can describe me?i dunno...but durinh these days...i'm doing lots of reflection about my long case assessment & short case examination...

can i just tell you what happened to my long case? blogger-emoticon.blogspot.com

my long case assessment was on the 7th week of Internal Medicine posting...
and it was the worst thing i ever done...and i still can't get over it...
felt so insulted and...huhuuhh~
blogger-emoticon.blogspot.comi really hate it...

insulted why?that's between me & the patient that i get for the assessment...
i can take it if my skill & my knowledge were not sufficient for the assessment...but what that patient said to me was the worst,an impact to me...
it's ok, you can say all you want when the specialist was there examining me, you can ignore, insult, & hurt my feeling at that time...

but that will never change anything coz i'm determine to go on in this medical school...you are the 1st hard patient that i got to handle...

"owh~you get that patient?she's nice~she has findings when you do physical examination on her~"
hahaaa~sadly guys,i would like to ask you - do you even spend time clerking her?!! or you just come to her to listen to the positive findings that she had on auscultation?!!
i bet you just come to her & ask - "can we check you for a while?"
if there's a medical student came & clerked her, she will not be so "SHOCK"ed with some of my questions...like she never being ask about that before...

dunno whether that just an act or what blogger-emoticon.blogspot.com

you get to see a patient's true self when you clerking them...
their attitude, voice, body language...
yup,i can see that the patient not really really comfortable to be 'used' for exam...
if that patient was willing, he/she will gladly to cooperate + gave some hints to the students
[like in my short case examination~will tell you about this in the next post]

ok...
i cannot turn back time...
i admit that i'm not really prepared for the long case...
but what happened between me & the patient is not something that i expected to happen...
thank God that the patient was cooperative during physical examination, yeah...she had the positive findings that parallel with her disease/condition...

i'm just hoping that...i will pass this assessment...

yeah...
this is the beauty of medicine blogger-emoticon.blogspot.com
you need to know the art to manage the patient + how to handle/manage this kind of situation...

blogger-emoticon.blogspot.comi love my life

XOXO - slice of life...not always as sweet and tasty like slice of cake...

Saturday, January 1, 2011

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2011!!!

بِسْمِ اللَّهِ الرَّحْمَنِ الرَّحِيم

Assalamualaikum n elo...

a short blog post before i go to bed....

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2011

thank you Allah for great 2010~
may this 2011 is a better year for all of us~i cannot wait to experience new things and memories~

have a pleasant 2011 guys~!!!

XOXO - I love You...A LOT~ =/////=
.: cherish your every moment in life...be happy :.