in memories....love u forever....

Assalamualaikum n elo...

today is...not a very great day for me...a day that i never thought to come this fast...a day that...
i lost my beloved grandma this morning....

i knew about it when i called my mom this morning...just wanna called her, asked her whether she called me last night...i didn't answer the call yesterday since i attending my friend's birthday party + meeting for TWP07 annual dinner...
at 1st...i didn't understand what my sister said...she just said,"Mak...mak..."(we called our grandma from our mother's as Mak)...then, i asked her to give the phone to my mom & when i heard her voice...so sad & almost crying when she called my name....i knew something wrong...huhuhuhu...
i asked my mom whether she want me to go home or not....she just said no need...then i called my dad to comfirm it...he also said the same thing....since i will coming home this 27th of April....just so sad coz...cannot meet her for the last time...

my grandma..."Mak..."...is a very strict person yet loving towards her grandchildren....she often 'membebel' at us..even for small things but at the same time she will gave us some advice about life...i was a naughty girl back there..always being scolded by her...coz love to bully my brother (she love my brother & spoilt him a lot^^)...me & my siblings are closed with her since we are staying with her since we are small...eventhough almost everyday we will be scolded by her...b'coz we are so stubborn...hehehe...

when i'm in secondary school...there was my cousin...who having unuversity graduation ceremony at that time...and my grandma didn't attend that ceremony...since my uncle & aunt didn't bring her together...she said that she didn't mind at all but can feel that she really wanted to watch her grandchild's graduation ceremony...during that time...i really wanted to graduate from university as soon as possible...so she can attend it n not showing those sad eyes again...kinda...weird right?a secondary school girl thinking like a little girl...to tell u the truth...i still thiking of that thing until now...but...

one more thing...the house will be in chaos every morning....since she will be yelling as early as 5.30 a.m, to wake up us for school...the thing is when she woke us up...we will get up & sit on the bed, then when she got out from our room, we would continue our sleep...hehehe...so that's why we hv the yelling everyday...and our breakfast during school days - roti telur, roti sardin, roti bakar, tea, milo....just love it eventhough the breakfast was simple...^^

but...all of the scolding, her voice, her laugh, he yelling gone a year ago...she suffered from stroke...since that day...she didn't talk at all...didn't tell what & how is she feeling...just looked at us...

there are so many memory with here...since we met her everyday since we are small...b4 we can talk & walk...b4 i entered Matrix, b4 i coming here to Indonesia...i always with her...talking to her...sometimes fight with her...in the end...when i said i'm the one who is wrong...she just smile at me...

will be missing her...since i not seing her again when i'm coming home this holiday....n in the future...love u Mak...will always love u & missing u forever...

"sedekahkan Al-Fatihah buat nenekku, Hanim Abd Manan....semoga rohnya dirahmati Allah Taala & ditempatkan bersama roh org2 beriman...Ameen..."